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2012-02-04T23:30:00.000+08:00

On the 28th last month.

STRICTLY PANCAKES

44A Prinsep Street Singapore 188674

Read a few reviews about this place which sells everything with pancakes! They have pancakes served plain, main course pancakes with side dishes like salmon or beef and pancakes with ice cream and chocolate sauce as desserts!

I love the whole concept! When me and boyfee got there the place was packed and we kinda cut the queue in? So to cut the story short, we went there hungry and came out a-stomach-full-of-yummy-pancakes!

So cute! Racial harmony ehhhhhh~

The menu is like stylo-milo!

Vanilla and chocolate oreo shake!

Garlic & herb butter with a shot of maple syrup!

Salted butter with another shot of maple syrup!

SALMON RUN

medium stack with savoury slices of premium smoked salmon topped with dill sour cream and a wedge of lemon.

POTATOES LEEKING CHEESE

Two pancakes stuffed with potatoes, cheese and leek served with sautéed mushrooms and sour cream

This is so thick I swear and I couldn't finish the whole portion.

It was such a waste cause we were so full after this we don't any more space for dessert. The next table ordered dessert and it looked so super yummy! *slurps*

For more info: http://www.strictlypancakes.com.sg/index.html

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Went over to Raffles City and met up with my girls. Had dinner at ShoTeppan!

Japanese restaurant which you can choose to have either Teppanyaki or Sukiyaki!

So four of us chose sukiyaki so it's pretty much like steamboat!

Sukiyaki soup base

Shabu Shabu soup base

Marble pork

Black Angus (Beef)

It's nice! You choose your preferred soup base, then your choice of meat and also choice of udon or rice! Then off you go cooking your own dinner! Me and youseeme just sat there and enjoy the free top up of soup the whole time! Hehehe likeacheapo but hey the sukiyaki soup is really nice!

Plus it's really accessible! One at Raffles City Shopping Centre #B1-44B, beside Buffet town and the other outlet is at ION #B3-19.

See this girl eat until so shiok!

After dinner we girls got 2 pint of Ben&Jerry and sat on the stairs of Marina Square (facing Esplanade) and did some catching up plus tonnes of cmwhore.

Strawberry Shortcake & New York Super Fudge Chuck!

Then me and youseeme headed over to Gariel's place for mahjonggggg with Han. It's been over a year since we had a game together!

Okay hope you're not grossed out by the pictures and I will update soon! Just went USS yesterday and it was pretty empty so I got the chance to went on the rides twice or even better, thrice! HEHEHE! And me and boyfee spent less than $200 in total! So within budget! GREAT DAY I HAD YESTERDAY! :D

And now I've got to pack my rest day mood away and get ready for work tomorrow. I've got this slight swelling and tenderness over my left sternocleidoidmastoid and am having a pretty bad cough with yellowish phlegm. Sighhhhhhhhhhhh, most probably is inflammation. The swelling is palpable. Solid proof that healthcare workers are more prone to infections and falling ill. Mehhhh. I need to sleep now.

Gdnights.

CNY (II)

2012-02-04T01:12:00.000+08:00

Reets

2012-01-31T23:22:00.001+08:00

On the 21st of the month, it's our beloved Ah Boo's 22nd birthday!

So her thoughtful boy Adrian planned out this surprise dinner with WS just for her! How sweet right?!

So we all reached and got settled down at Hippopotamus located at Marina Square.

And tada, birthday girl with her birthday gifts! Zara bag and a Coach Wristlet!

And here comes the food *drools*

Appetizer: Teriyaki Chicken on sticks

actually forgotten the name of it. so LOL

See see RAW BEEF SLICES.

Was initially grossed out by it but it taste okay I guess? The lemon and cheese made the taste okay and it's quite chewy and juicy.

GO TRYYY!

They have one which is a chuck of raw minced beef and that's too gross already seriously :s

Healthy Salad!

Some beef with Green beans and Potato Gratin

Beef again with fries

Grill chicken with rice and baked potato.

Along with sour cream and cheeseeeee!

Beef again~ with baked potato and Ratatouille

The main courses are not bad. The beef is juicy and cooked till it's just right!

Hehehe

SEE SEE DESSERT!

Pineapple with icecream!

Creme Brulee!

Ben&Jerry!

Okay so after the yummy dinner we had the cakez.

Huge cake by small Boo!

Xiaoying & Adrian.

So lovey-dovey!

Anyway it was a birthday surprise success with near-failure (nearly got caught by xiaoying as a few of us were roaming around marina square before dinner!)

HERE'S PHOTOS TO INTRO YOU THE PRETTYS AND HAMSUMZ IN WATERSAPIENS

Minhui & Jialong

THIS GIRL IS DAMN SEXAY~!

Girls of WS

And the guys -.-

WaterSapiens

♥♥♥

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After that we girls went over to homeground at Rebel! with guys from Beach Patrol and wheeeee we made new friends with two bouncers! Ohhh yayyyye we got to cut the queue in and got free drinks after that! Heheh! Okayyy we shall go visit them soon!

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617moredaystogo

#iwillsurvive

CNY (I)

2012-01-27T23:15:00.001+08:00

I hate dietician

2012-01-20T20:48:00.003+08:00

Yesyes I freaking hate the Dietician. They make me feel guilty about what I put into my mouth. Or maybe I should be guilty, sigh. Well after the session, I'd concluded that to be healthy, you should not eat or drink anything, 做神 (be god) or "Jia-hong" (which means "eat air" in hokkien). Y'know, save money save effort save time! SO GOOD RIGHT!

LOL LIKE THAT MIGHT AS WELL DONT EAT RIGHT. WTFZ

And people, smoking is bad for health. Like you guys need me to emphasize it further. Sigh.

SEE HOR SEE HOR.

40 OVER CHEMICALS INSIDE.

Buttttttttttttttt

I don't think you guys even care about it. What's so naise about the kick?

WHUTTTTTT~?!

New friend made! Cause she sent my readmission up from A&E the day before.

-.-

CHEWWWLINGGGGG!

This is why I'm fat.

Still need to keep the fat in check!

*le sigh*

I've really given up already.

My pay is not in yet!!! I need $$$ nownownow! And my big boss gave me AL tomorrow, so I got to start my long weekends early! How naise! HEHEHE! Got my nails painted already so if pay is in at 12midnight, I can go shopping tomorroww Yeyzxzxzxcsxz!

*note to self*

No snacking until CNY

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Beachhhhh

2012-01-17T00:43:00.001+08:00

I want to be happy.
I want to smile all day long.

I have 631days more to go.
I am falling sick.

I should sleep now.

xoxo

We run the nightz

2012-01-15T23:39:00.002+08:00

Had the regular meetup with da awesumz yesterday night and it was great! Met up with the army boys and my girls. And how can I forget the Great! Guess where we went after dinner, Timbre of course. Like I've said, Timbre is our new fav hangout.

So here's to you......

THE GREAT :D

Marggg!

HEHEHEE THE BOYFEEEE ♥

BOTAKBOTAK!!!

Kay my noob Penny died after this pictures. I've forgotten to bring my spare battery out. How clever. Pizzzzzzzzz~

Although I had a good time last night, I had to admit my post-work mood totally rock socks. I was so worn out from work, I basically stoned through half of the gathering. And had my first HTHT talk with Marg and it's about Nursing. I'd felt so relieved to have somebody who can relate to how I'm feeling but yet it's sad to know that only those who are in this field can see how much we're suffering from this "profession". Everyone else just take advantages of us, took us for granted. Have they ever stopped and think, "Hey what will I do without nurses?"

I slept for 3 hours and went for work this morning. Had a really really bad day at work and I do not need more of these days to make me feel useless and give me more excuses to quit. Why must I be so lousy? Why do I even care? Oh yeah right, not wanting to fail to live up to people's expectations. HOW NAISE~

Junior work and I can't even complete my assigned tasks on my own

PATHETIC AH PATHETIC.

I have 633 more days. Soooo..... wtfz. Suck thumb ah suck thumb~ D':

And see see Marg gave me this kewt doggies calendar! It's a production of someone she knows and they're like giving out for free? Urghh I couldn't remember the details but me being a dog lover cannot resist the cuteness! And all the doggie models are their pets!

How creative to make it into a calendar! Promote the cuteness, see already also will happy one yknow! :D

Tanning with YSM on Wed~

Tomorrow gonna go tanning with Boyfee. I'm determined to get my colour right before Chinese New Year!

Hehehe! And I guess for him it would be more of roasting? LOl. I'm looking forward to end of the tanning session. He would be so burnt.

And see this people! Since when was the sea so near to the lifeguard post in Palawan Beach?! Had a shock totally. See the wet sand so near the beach patrol surfboard. It's so scary really. We used to have loads of space to do PT and running even when it's high tide.

SIGNS OF GLOBAL WARMING

*le sigh*

But I can't resist aircon now. I've leveled up to this aircon dependent person now.

meh.

Love you like a love song

2012-01-13T00:44:00.001+08:00

Never thought her voice would sound so pleasant. Currently on replay.

NAISE NAISE VERY NAISE~

And also I'd like the way she look in the MV. So classy! No longer the kid in Disney Channel I used to remember! Okayyy that's a long long time ago, I've not been really a teevee fan since I don't know when. So whatever.

I'd hit the club last night. Finally some real partying in like.... 2months? 3months?? Maybe even longer. For somebody who used to go twice a week, I truly felt so deprived. Well usually Rebel! would have the better music and we went in pretty early so the music kinda suck. So we stayed in Zirca and then when we went over to Rebel!, the music was arghhhhh-so-awesome I swear I'd screamed a bit. What a waste really!

And before the night I went tanning with @theredmonsterr! The sun wasn't that good initially and the light drizzle had to scare us! We packed up then the drizzle stopped. Then after awhile the sun was HAWTTT. Like what @theredmonsterr said, "Palawan sun usually better. When we train usually it's very hot." Haha okay I ended up red instead of brown. Can you imagine red and having to club later on, I had a hard time choosing clothes and putting on makeup. Zzzz -.- Anyway I hope I won't peel, me want to be tann so nobody would say I'm from China.

Period.

Anyway it was a really good tanning session with her cause we've been planning this for a gazillion years and we finally had the same day off! Not to mention that Mr Sunny is having PMS now and always playing MIA on us.

And it's Friday the 13th!

Goodluck you all~

2012-01-09T00:54:00.000+08:00

Some pictures from countdown! We mahjonged from last year till this year! :D

HAHAHA MAHJONG QUEEN!

Ogayyy then yesterday I had my FTT @ SSDC. And I passed like a WOAH~ HAHAHA! I got 49/50 somemore. HEHEHE #likeapro. And Boyf passed his FTT too! Kayyyy anyway means I can get my license already weeeeeheeee~

Then I had this major craving for Timbre's Roast Duck Pizza

So off we go to the Timbre at Old School.

SEEEEEEEEE *SLURPS*

This is super good seriously!

Cause we were the first few customers and the pizza is like made with love! So much crackers toppings and the cheezzzzz is like 2cm thick I swear! The crust is toasted till it's so crispy! The best duck pizza out of all those I had before! Two thumbs up with all my toes up too!

(Y)

HAHAHAHA Me being so deprived of nightlife cause of work, of course I would wanna have some drinks right?!

So Glenlivet 15years for you?

Super alcoholic please

So we started at about 6.30pm and by 8.30pm....

Tahhhhhdahhhhh~

Half bottle is gone!

Then by 1030pm......

We're done!

SUPER DUPER ALCOHOLIC I SWEAR

Before we came Timbre we are chilling at Starbucks and I had this Venti White Mocha Frappe with whipcream and after my first glass of liqour I swear I had this burning sensation in my stomach! Then guess what, I puked damn badly when I reached my doorstep! Wasn't drunk but just puked... On my dress -.- Was sober throughout though, hahaha 2 persons 1 bottle = CANNOT TANK!

I know I know the low quality of a iTouch camera.

WE CLIMBED THIS STAIR UP AND DOWN~

Had palpitations after that!

Woke up today tired.

Went to work today unmotivated.

What's new really?!?!?!?!

I need a night out with all the fun people in the world. I'm spending too much time with the sick people in the world currently. It's bad for my social development. I feel depress sometimes and stressed most of the time. I feel so negative and gloomy, like when something bad happens, it's okay for it to happen cause this is life and we've just got to suck it up.

meh.

THIS.IS.SO.NOT.GOOD.FOR.ME

Okay byebye people. Me needs some cords now.

SEEYA!

2012-01-07T13:44:00.001+08:00

Sometimes I just feel like slapping myself hard in the face.

CNY is just round the corner and I've not been losing but gaining fats. Wait I might not even get to celebrate CNY at all. You see my work schedule does not permit me to get PH offdays on the PH itself.

*le sigh*

But then again $.$

!!!!

Payday falls around the same time as CNY. Weeheeheeeee kachings kachings. Should use those money to go slim down or do my hair or something, really cannot take it anymoreeeee.

kkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk I shall quit whining.

Time for some cords!

BYE!

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2012-01-03T00:12:00.000+08:00

Good day people. I'm very pms-y today.

Do I look like a freaking china? No offence but I'm 100% Made-in-Singapore and it makes my blood boil when this particular lady asked if I'm china cause my face is white?! What kind of weird theory is that?! Means all indians are from India or Bangladesh? Go for some cataract surgery please lady, you piss me off big time. zzzzzzz.

Come to think of it, what's so happy about the new year? It will be the same as any others right? Screwing up at some point of the year, cry father cry mother, you meet some people you lose some. You earn money and spend money, win some and lose some. Maybe more good things happen and some people are just downright unlucky. But heck, I'm a full working adult now so I'm not being very optimistic about this year. Being one year older in approx 8months time and still having years to pay back to the freaking organisation. *le sigh*

If I have the balls and money now I would quit my job. REALLY REALLY REALLY. It has only been 3months and look at the amount of drama. Describing my job as stressful is so underrated. Maybe I should save up just to break the bond. 32k only -.-

Kaykaykay whathefatz

No more unrealistic optimism.

I'm seriously cranky today urgh I don't know what's wrong.

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2012-01-02T00:09:00.002+08:00

Hey everyone, Happy New Year! So first few days is all about new year resolutions and that sort of stuff but people very often make unrealistic resolutions which makes making resolutions redundant. I only have one resolution and that is to stay happy. It's not easy to achieve that but I did :)

So this year is so happening, so super happening and yes it's so much better than the previous year (in your face twozeroonezero)

2010 Dec

Two new additions on Feb 2011!

KOI Clementi ♥

Love these people!

Our usual k-session after a long day!

Now that I'd left, I miss them so much!

Water Sapiens ♥

Chinese New Year

NTU Swimathon!

Eddy's Model Search

Love the girls ♥

Also I took part in my first Biathlon ever. Biathlon is like a marathon but it's consists of both swimming and running component!

Singapore Biathlon 2011

Now these people I am so super glad to have them in my life

Dive khakis!

LIPING UNNI

LIM-AH-JIA & YOUSEEME

♥

With the favourite bestest lecturer of all!

Our favourite hangout is currently Timbre lolololol

NYPLG

& this year I've been partying real hard. Well you gotta live like you don't plan to wake up right? And I'm still gonna party as much as possible this year!

Grace @ Zirca!

Yvonne came too!

Then WS became my regular club khakis!

Halloween @ St.James

Powerhouse with KOI!

& see what we've found in Zirca

@.@

some mop-head

Kayyyzzz now this awesome gang who made clinical postings so freaking awesome!

Clinical postings at KTPH Major Operating Theatre

Gerontology posting @ St. Joseph's Home

How can I forget the yearly Lifesaving competitions! This one must post y'know, train until can die then get to stand on the podium and get some medals!

Superlifesaver hor mai siao siao!

NUS Invitationals

Lifesaving Nationals (Open & Still water)

Also I'm glad to say that I'd managed to complete all my clinical postings and passed my PRCP with a whooping A which pulled my GPA up like a WOAH & I've graduated from Nanyang Poly like a finally!
I swear I was damn happy can?! Finally out of that freak ass place and I have no plans of returning there for now.
Soooooooooooooo sthe main point is I'd graduated and I am a freaking registered nurse now. This is the real shit.
Change uniform lo!

Pantsuit!

Dress!

So which is nicer?!

HAHAA I did my PRCP in B66 and I was invited to their ward party!

MY LOVELY PRECEPTOR GOSH YOU CAN NEVER IMAGINE HOW MUCH I MISS HER!
SHE'S DA BEST!
NISA
♥♥♥

Miss them! D:

Sexy Peachy!

MhyMhy!

Pretty Jean Grey!

HAHAHA Sister Pauline!

Now am working in Ward A61, the most dramatic ward with the most drama and wayang patients and relatives in the whole hospital. Everyday got drama to see, no need on teevee somemore, save electricity.

Green-tagged SN with our PSA!

Happy Birthday Vicky!

Pinky Pink Drama Ward Party

Awesome colleagues here!

Don't know who took this picture -.-

SISTERS GATHERING

Gift exchange!!!

The presents were all so awesome!

Best dress- SHALI!

Prize presentation

HAHAHA gila pair!

Aza & Yani

Playing games!

Dr Selvan!

Baby EJ! Sleep throughout the noise we were making!

SO CUTEEEE!

Our PSA Vicky and Su!

Our ESA Ekin and Rani!

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Okay that's that! Just now I'd mentioned about Biathlon right? Now I'm going to haolian about me taking part in a marathon! HALF marathon actually hehehe 21KM IS NO JOKE PLEASE!

STANDARD CHARTERED MARATHON 2011

Before the race!

Halfway mark!

Abit more to go! 16km!

Last 50m, shagged maxxxxx

HEHE CROSSED THE FINISHING LINE~

Despite the busy schedules, am glad that I'd some time with my family.

My 20th birthday cakes

Dinner!

LAST DAY OF THE YEAR

I did nothing fanciful, did not went to party as planned and I had to work PM shift so after work headed over to MinHui's place for some mahjong training!

And yeap that's my simple yet fun countdown to the start of a new year!

So that's the end of the long long post.
And opps I'd miss out something.

So blessed to have him! HEHEHEE

NEW YEAR RESOLUTION 2012

STAY HAPPY
STAY SAFE
STAY FIT

365/365

2010-12-31T02:04:00.001+08:00

490 entries ever since 2005.
I'm leaving this place for now.
Last post of 2010.

I'm at wordpress now. :)

364/365

2010-12-31T00:13:00.003+08:00

This year is ending, finally.

Frankly speaking, it sucks. To prove, read all my 2010 entries and try comparing it with 09 or 08. Seriously, sucky ttm. I have many regrets in life, I don't deny that there have been good times during this year but the bad times override it, makes the good times look tiny, insignificant. Good or bad, I've survived, though barely but I did.

The last year in school, or so I thought until I found out that I'm gonna graduate in Sept due to a forward module which is like lameshittothemax. So yeah I'm wasting my time now doing one module which is going to end in 3days time while the rest of the batch is doing their PRCP now. Sigh. School sucked but on the other hand competitions were awesome. WSapiens rock seriously even though the trainings are tougher than hell but the feeling on top of the podium is undescribable. Next is KOI, something good I would say. Met some pretty awesome people there and now I know why people can be so into work cause people and environment plays a big role. Not gonna say anything about BGR, really speechless by now. Zzzzzz. I've hurt and been hurt, that's that.

Thankful for the people who taught me new stuff.
Thankful for the people who believed in me.
Thankful for the people who stood by me during the toughest time of my 19years of stupid life. Thankful for everything that has happened cause I'm a (maybe not better but definitely) tougher person now. (More resilient I would say, more sensible and I realised that nothing good comes out of things if forced, finally understood the saying "勉强是没有幸福的".)

2011, bring it on.

YOU.

2010-12-30T03:02:00.003+08:00

I HATE BEING CONTROLLED. WHY SO INSECURE. WHAT THE FUCK DID I DO WRONG WHICH LED TO YOUR INSECURITIES? WHAT DID I DO TO MAKE YOU JEALOUS? CMON ITS ONLY A GUY TRYING TO TEACH ME STUFF AT WORK AND YOU CAN THINK UNTIL HE HOLD MY HANDS AND LIKE WHAT I DO NOTHING ABOUT IT? AM I A FUCKING SLUT TO YOU WHAT THE FUCK.YOU SAY YOU TRUST ME BUT NOT OTHERS. WHAT IS THIS SERIOUSLY. THEN SAY MY WORKPLACE TOO MUCH GUYS. YOUR WORKPLACE SERVERS ALL GUYS ALSO CAN FLIRT WITH ANOTHER GIRL, I ALSO TRUST YOU ALREADY. WHY CANT YOU JUST FUCKING DO THE SAME.

MUST WE BE LIKE SUPERGLUE ALL THE TIME? CANT I HAVE SOME TIME WITHOUT YOU? MUST I ALWAYS BE THERE TO REPLY YOUR TEXT? EVEN WHEN IM WITH MY FRIEND ONCE YOUR TEXT COME IN I MUST REPLY ONE FULL PAGE TO SHOW THAT I FUCKING CARE?

EVERYTIME IM OUT WITH MY FRIENDS YOU WILL ASK GUY OR GIRL, DOES IT EVEN MATTER.

THIS WEEK I SPENT ALMOST EVERYDAY AT YOUR PLACE. I STAY HOME ONLY FOR 2DAYS, YOU SAY I SPEND NOT ENOUGH TIME WITH YOU AND ALWAYS AT WORK. CMON WHAT ARE YOU THINKING. I WORK FOR ONLY 3-4DAYS A WEEK AND ITS ONLY FOR 5 HOURS. ONLY 20HOUR IN (24X7)HOURS PLEASE.

FREAKING TIRED OF THIS SHIT.

好烦啊!! 真的快喘不过气了。我累了，这次真的累了。我不想再拖了。该是事候结
束一切。做自己，做回真正的我。

2010-12-29T02:22:00.001+08:00

不够!!! 真的不够!!! 真的不够时间!!! 我快要疯了。太多事要做了，可是不够时间。
好烦噢! 这几天只顾着玩，没有足够的睡眠。现在累坏了自己，身体开始感到不舒
服了! :C

不要再玩了，省钱。还有要记得讨债，不能让他们谦过新的一年啊!

好，拜!

2010-12-25T06:21:00.000+08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE.

Currently at my aunt's place. Baby mj-ed and lost near to 200 bucks, I took over and won back a 100. Now he's at it again. Sigh. Just not our luck I guess. :/

3 xmas celebration this year. Tmrw gonna go for KOI celebration then to WS for mahjong tournament haha! Then sunday is awesome's gathering, mahjong again. Yeah that's what life is all about. Mahjong mahjong and more mahjong~ Hehe!

$.$

2010-12-23T23:53:00.001+08:00

Ashley shared something with me just now,which made both of us burst out into laughters.

I guess thats how people feel about someone.

Mehhh goodnight.

2010-12-22T01:32:00.002+08:00

Those calculations are driving me crazy. I've never been good with numbers, what's more, mental calculations. Sigh guess I need to put in more effort in everything.

A few more days till Christmas, then a couple more to the end of the year. Now if your 2010 was being flimed on tape, would it be a good one? How would you feel if your 2010 is to be on replay and you are the audience?

2010-12-20T14:57:00.002+08:00

Christmas 2010.

23: Dinner with G's family with Lips&Nick.
23-24: Overnight with NYPLG @ PasirRisPark.
24-25: My family's xmas.
25: Gift exchange with KOI clique!
25-26: Overnight with WS @ Leonard's place.
26-27: Awesome clique @ G's place.

2010-12-17T02:16:00.003+08:00

I am not a bad person I am not a bad person I am not a bad person
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나는 좋은 사람이
!!!

Sigh why am I not convinced

.

Second

2010-12-16T15:58:00.002+08:00

Sometimes I really wish I had a big brother to take care of me, to be there for me when I'm down and to help me out when I got into trouble.

Sick and tired of responsibilities.

2010-12-14T01:20:00.002+08:00

原本的老G和老SMOOTH已变成了NAUGHTYG已及SMOOTHIE了!
G-SMOOTHIE FTW~

And Christmas is only like 11days away! Excited like a G6 only hehehe! Am already fully booked for this week and next - G's clique, G's family, NYPLG, own family, WS. Only lacking awesome clique, MC and KOI :/ But I guess we will all be busy busy during this festive season so finding a time would be urmz hard. Sigh. Anyway I made up it (Awesome clique) up myself lol cause this group of people is like so freaking awesome (woots! \m/) okay includes MrAaronStephMargLipsAshGayHanJyMe. WE ARE AWESOME, BAH YOU GUYS ARE AWESOME!

Kxz got nothing much to really elaborate on, just that work is getting tiring with the pearls and pearls and more pearls. :/ 煮珍珠煮到我的手要断掉了啦(!) then? Tsk.
Nehmind cause work is getting fun-ner and fun-ni-er each passing day! KOI \m/ Heh!
:D

2010-12-13T15:02:00.002+08:00

My life had to be on the low end, all year round. Well there's nothing I can do now. I well deserved it. Stupid people make stupid mistakes like this. Don't know if it's really sabotage or really my fault. Well seriously the ninefivezero really fucking screwed up my already fucked up life. How I wish I can be free and do whatever I like. Life would be so much different now and hey, materials won't make one truly happy. I rather be poor, live a humble life but smiling everyday than to be financially stable but have to worry about nonsense. Fucking regret. Really really pissed and effedup.

Whatever seriously whatever.

2010-12-12T02:35:00.002+08:00

今天不知道为什么，想用华语来更新博客。可能是在KOI做久了，不之不觉有点想念
母语。啊，好感伤喔! 哈哈哈! 自从中学毕业之后，我就很少，几乎是零次用华语
打字或写华文字。突然间对华文好陌生。真不知道我那A2是着么拿来的! 程度真的
大跌，一落千仗 :( 再工作是说话用是会找不到适当的用词，脑海里都是英文词。
身为华人，真感到惨愧。

嗨。。。最近发生了不少事，真让人苦恼。我也不知如何是好，就只好将心比心，
希望一切会好转。信任是什么东西啊，爱又是什么玩儿。令人欢喜又使人悲伤。至
今我只是走一步算一步。我也不敢再邀求什么，只是希望那一幕不会再从演。太痛
了，真的太痛了。要天天快乐真的好难啊! 现在要怎么放心去爱呢? 已经对爱产生
了阴影，都不知该如何去爱才正确。伤透了脑精也苦了我的心。

算了吧! 就把悲伤换成力量，头也不回，勇敢得踏出第一步吧!

加油!

2010-12-06T11:38:00.003+08:00

9am lectures = Late/skipped lecture = Low attendance = Debarrment.

STANDARD.
FUCKING HELL.

DECEMBER IS LIKE SHIT.

2010-12-05T21:09:00.002+08:00

Sometimes I really wonder why the heart is the strongest muscle in the body. And then I realised it is the strongest cause no matter how much amount of emotional pain inflicted, it will be willing to love again.

But there are times when the damages are too extensive, so badly hurt that even when healed, there would be scars. And it will always be there to serve as a reminder, a lesson learned from past experiences.

I had enough scars etched but somehow I do not learn. Therefore here I am now, wasted and in a dilemma.

Heartbreak is an odd kind of pain because you are not dying. You are not even sick. You are perfectly fine yet you hurt so much that you can't even breathe. You can't sleep, you can't stop the tears from falling. You may eat too much, you may not eat at all. Non-smokers light up, non-drinkers find a bar. A broken heart is the world's greatest equalizer cause it can turn even the sweetest angel into a freaking devil.

2010-12-05T18:56:00.002+08:00

FUCKING PAINFUL

Diet Day Two

2010-12-04T05:54:00.005+08:00

DD2 was a complete failure. Ate maggie for lunch, then late dinner was bah chor mee and half share rojak. Then came home to found that there's dinner, so I ate and had chocs. FATTYISNOTGOINGTOGETANYSKINNIERONLYFATTERZOHHEMMGEEEYOUPIGPLEASESTOPEATINGZZZ!

SIGH.

Anyway now watching BOF like again. Yesyes but I'm doing so to learn my Korean! :) And the sudden urge to do naval piercing is here again! Tomorrow gonna go work and then to St.James. And webcammed with YSM just now cause I had a fashion crisis! HAHA and I created my own new way of wearing an oversized dress! Mmm hope it will be nice tomorrow. Seriously who wants to be a laughing stock eh! Molah fly away day again. :( Ohhhh Citibank Clear Card, I'm so getting you :)

And I should be asleep now but am waiting for G to come over after work. 6am already y'know! Sigh, seriously eff my screwed up body clock. How wo change back seriously. Nowadays need to sleep for 12 hours then can wake up, but I'm working at 1730. And it's gonna be late night tomorrow too. How now brown cow? Think the cows also sleeping already. Sianzxcs ttm. :( Now I should pray for him to be back soon and I should go cry over BOF now.

Annyeong
Goodbye
Adios

2010-12-02T16:04:00.004+08:00

ITWILLNEVERBEENOUGH. IDONTKNOWWHYIMSTILLVERYAFFECTEDBYTHAT. ITWILLBRINGMEDOWNSOMEDAY,ITREALLYWILL.BUTTHERESNOTHINGICANDORIGHT. ITHINKIKNOWYOUWELL,ORINFACTITHINKIKNOWYOUTOOWELLTHATSWHY. WHATTHESHITSERIOUSLYISHOULDBEREALLYSTAYINGHAPPYORATLEASTTRYINGTO. NOPEIMNOTABITHAPPYNOWNOTSADALSOJUSTWANTINGNOTTOCAREABOUTANYTHINGALREADY. TOOEXHAUSTINGITSGONNAKILLIFIKEEPUPWITHTHIS. AMIBEINGABITCHNOW? CAUSEIDONOTWANTTOBEONE.

Anyway was just ranting for the sake of doing it. It's thundering now, I had a very bad dream that woke me up, my left epigastrium has been hurting since I was asleep and I got to work later. It's not gastric I think, could be the alcohol but heck seriously. Okay now it started pouring. And I have a eff-ed up menstrual cycle.

Random but whatever seriously.

Bye.

2010-12-02T02:58:00.002+08:00

There's a reason why people built walls around their heart. It serves as a protection, like an isolation ward for a patient who's undergoing chemotherapy. When you let the walls down and let someone in, it's like risking an infection. I'm infected.

I'm ignoring. I'm avoiding my feelings. I'm trying my very best not to care. Whatever, I'm really refraining myself not to know. Detail kills. Is it really me with my absurd thoughts again cause this time round the feeling seems vaguely familiar, something's wrong. Women's instinct they call it. However nonsensical, mine have been pretty accurate.

Honesty is the best policy no? Even if the truth hurts, I would want to know cause I believe no matter how hurtful the truth is, it wouldn't be as hurtful as the lie.

IGNORE EVERYTHING & PRETEND THAT NOTHING HAS HAPPENED.

Twenty-seven-fifty of cheap alcohol, take the pain away. Hope it would be enough.

S-PIDS.

2010-11-30T01:58:00.005+08:00

I CAN'T BELIEVED I'D MISSED OUT MAMA 2010. IT WAS ON TEVEE SUNDAY NIGHT ON CHANNEL U. WHAT THE HECK SERIOUSLY! K-POP GALORE (2PM, BIG BANG, 2NE1) *FAINTS* AM SO PISSED WITH MYSELF SERIOUSLY. NOW PATHETIC-A-LLY FINDING VIDEOS ON YOUTUBE. AND 2PM'S IS TOTALLY AWESOME LOVE EM LOVE EM LOVE EM. SO IS BIGBANG'S AND 2NE1. BUT WHERE ARE THE REST?!?!?!?!?!

I WANT REPLAY PLEASEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

ANYWAY.
2PM'S PERFORMANCE
(L)

Structure of Breaking Up:
Longing - ChanSung
Sadness - JunHo
Anger - WooYoung
Loneliness - JunSu
Memory - Taecyeon
Feel Lost - Nickhun

Freaking love JunSu's part with the Piano! Nice!
Anyway the whole layout and everything is awesome ttm!
:D

LONG LONG LONG.

2010-11-28T01:10:00.006+08:00

ECP last tuesday with 0827+1 was fun. If I were to type out the details, blogger would bann me. Anyways, in short, we ate, played with a ball, rollerblade, and cycled a 6seater bike with 4pedals and a steering wheel from the middle of ECP to the end of ECP for dinner & back to return the bike. Hell of fun seriously, somemore it's with my favourite bunch of pee-puhhhh (L). Pictures nao! :D

Good weather! Thank you Zeus!

Pigging out, PIG-NIK!

DINOSAUR GAME~

Monkey! And Steph played too okayyyyy! What a rare sight! HEHE!

This guy where also can Tatonic -.-

Guys played Volleyball & us girls.....

...... camwhore as usual! :D
Okay now! *JIANGJIANG* The 6 seater bike with 4 pedals and a steering wheel!

Named it CherryQQ.
We had to "go-stun" the Flinstones way (using legs) cause this QQ got no reverse gear.
LOl.

Steph on bike! HAHAHA!

We "parked" our QQ and had dinner @ Lagoon.

YUMS!

AND
earlier that day, we took turns to drive QQ & AYSM drove and hit a tree and it became slanted FOR GOOD. Freaking funneh ttm lolzxascscacczczxzxcx~ HAHAHAHAHAHA! I am still LOLING out loud when I see this pic. Such fun. :D

Then the next few days was sick and felt so terrible I wanna die. Skipped training and gosh I'm so gonna start from zero again. Sianzx ttm seriously. Anyway am feeling better already. Work was all so fun as usual, kitchen today was kinda fun but also abit chaotic. Learn something new too. And I saw someone and it was awkward seriously sigh. Well, it's over anyways.

TOMORROW'S GONNA BE A GOOD GOOD DAY~
PLEASE BE SUNNY.
SENTOSA SENTOSA SENTOSA
!!!

K bye.
:D

FIVE.

2010-11-23T01:19:00.003+08:00

HELLO PEEPUHHH~ Monday is seriously blue. Feeling lethargic since the start of the morning. Lecture then to Astons then to Minds Cafe. Love it but had to leave for work. Then I learn how to cook pearls today. Even worse than brewing tea, 11.8kg water, 2.2kg pearls, 2.4kg sugar. FREAKING HEAVY SERIOUSLY. But anyway it was fun. Tomorrow's gonna be a good good day, 0827+1 picnic at ECP then hopefully, Harry Potter as promised by G. But think movie date's gonna drag again. Our schedules hardly ever have time for our own self, not to mention each other. Anyway came up with 5 stupid things to be done. Actually rules for myself instead.

Be nice to everybody, unless that person is a total slut.
Be more feminine :)
Attend all trainings (RUN, CORDS & SWIM).
Stop eating so much, lose weight. (serious)
Stay happy.

I won't adhere to them strictly, but I will put in my utmost efforts to follow them :) Change is good, fatty.

GOODNIGHT
.

SUNDAY.

2010-11-21T21:26:00.003+08:00

HELLO SUNDAY.

Okay today I woke up bright and early, got my ass down to Sentosa, spent 2 hours in the hot sun, kayaking and earn 30bucks! :D This is dope shit seriously. I LOVE FOCUS. Had lunch then met G and Jeremy. After they went to work, I went wondering around Vivo and ended up in F21 again. Then cannot control the urge so I got a cardigan and a top. Tsk. Then I got Liese Bubble Hair Dye and did my hair. The colour isn't that red but it looks more even now! :D Should ask someone to do it for me. And prolly because I didn't finish the whole bottle. Cause my head alot of bubbles already ehhhh! Next time won't be so super noob already.

G said his boss jio him mahjong. Ehhh I want mahjong can. ZOMG MAHJONG CRAZE IS BACK SERIOUSLY. If tuesday no 0827+1 outing I sure jio mahjong whole day one. Sianzxzxz. Okay I should stop thinking about mj and go sleep soon. Tmr's a long dayyyy.

Bye.

Bites.

2010-11-21T01:15:00.002+08:00

I just found out KOI Cafe's Dinner & Dance is on the 20th of Jan 2011. Excited to the max. It would be the first D&D I attend and every outlet have to come up with a performance with a theme. This is so wow. Okay maybe after a few more D&D then I will be bored of it already. And all KOI outlets will be closed on that day, 20/01/2010 (thurs) and also on the first 2days of CNY (4&5Feb). So cool right?! Okay I'm being very lame here.

I'm no workaholic but my co-workers are really very friendly and nice people. So far no politics and that's goody goody good good GOOD! Hahaha. There's this "死小孩们" made up of us singaporeans teenagers and the guys will always disturb my boss and her age and we will laugh damn loud then she will go "干你们这群死小孩!" It's all fun and laughter there and it makes time pass real fast. Next outing with colleagues will be next tuesday for steamboat and they've got plans to go club at Shanghai Dolly on X'mas eve. So happening! And it feels good to be included. :) And I want to work more, not for money but for the company! :D

Hmm anyway planning 0827+1 outing with Alya now on facebook. The big problem how many "attending" will be attending on that day and wet weather programme. Seriously, give me some sun. I NEED SUN REALLY!

Shall go zzz now. Tomorrow lifeguarding at Sentosa. Easy $$$ (Y)
BYE.

2010-11-20T14:41:00.001+08:00

HARRY POTTER & THE DEATHLY HALLOWS PART 1
WHY I HAVEN'T WATCH IT YET
???
GTJX WHY!

Bounce.

2010-11-20T00:11:00.003+08:00

HELLO WORLD. FATTY IS POSTING AGAIN.

Alright, fatty went for training just now and there she realised how unfit she is currently (FINALLY!). Training was good, just that the process of me completely it was like sai. SIGH BUT AT LEAST I COMPLETED IT. Hokay so throughout training I was thinking, why do I feel so 'chui' now. Then I realised as a sportsperson, starting early is very important. Now with all my youth wasted on rubbish (mainly eating non-stop), it's late already. But then again better late than never.

I was also thinking, we should totally act our age. Got one auntie say I look like 20plus. Then people at work say I look younger than actual age. So I guess acting my age is good no? It's no hurry to grow up cause we will someday, when the time is right. Live your life and enjoy being young! :D

Okayz now for some peektures to gross you out.

Kz.
ANNYEONG. GOODBYE. ADIOS.

Ohhh where's my G :(

Poots.

2010-11-19T03:16:00.003+08:00

Love KOI love KOI love KOI
Happy birthday 金妈!

At back from work & today was oh-super-tiring. Was supposed to be at cashier again then I was switched to kitchen and *jiang jiang* I had the tiring-est day of KOI ever. Learnt how to brew the different types of tea and the hot water is hot (like duh) but the vapours and hot steam is like "wooots" and I made a blunder as usual despite me learning and picking the skills up fast. I spilled plenty of tea and very VERY nearly, scalded people while transfering the tea from one container to the other. And seriously, freaking heavy. Try lifting 11kg of milk tea above your chest level. And I'm like short to reach the bar top properly. Suddenly, I love the much hated cashier. But truely after being in the kitchen, I realised the teas are really worth the wait and definitely worth the money. We time the brewing of the tea, we time the cooking of the pearls and we check the temperature of the tea. Once off temp, we do not use them anymore. Quality is there. :) Okay enough of advertisements.

Boss' birthday. Went to Bugis for supper with staff from other outlets. No eleboration needed I guess. Just steamboated, bbq-ed and had loads of fun. :D

Tomorrow will be training day again. Then shall wait for monday to meet G again.

OHHH G, KOI IS GOING TO TAMPINES. HAPPY NOTZX!
:D

2010-11-16T03:50:00.006+08:00

Some people might look nice on the outside but they're one hell of a meanie inside. Ohh yes I've seen loads of them. Why pretend to be nice to people who "up to standard" and be so unkind to people who don't. Is social class that important? Well those doubleface should be 'downed' two class for being double. Labels really that important? I wear Pierre Cardin bra & panty and also have a Pierre Cardin wallet which is 100bucks. Those who wear 3 for $10 bra and panty not humans beings? Those who use $2 pouch as wallets are low class? You're not even spending your own money, it's your parents. Your parents are well to do and you are not only poor because you don't earn a single cent but also just plain pathetic.

Anyway I'm just ranting. To all snobs out there who spends mummy's money on LV/Gucci/Coach whatever.

And I just hope the world can be a better place to live in.

And I just hope I can fall asleep, kz.

2010-11-15T00:54:00.001+08:00

Hello readers. I had a great Sunday spent with G :) How's yours?

Currently on my bed with a glass of Carlsberg. G's fast asleep already and me having a screwed body clock, not. And my laptop is somewhat dying on me, it's taking 10mins to start up and the homescreen is all weird with audio problems. Really need to get my stuff out into an external hard drive now, it's collapsing anytime I guess. Should I resus it or just get a new one? Urghh my money's now for the camera! :(

And my immune is giving in to the bacteria/virus invading my system now, same as old lappy, I'm sick. Everything will be okay right, I hope. As for now, adios. :)

Sent from my Blackberry Wireless Handheld.

HP

2010-11-12T01:02:00.005+08:00

Harry Potter & the Deathly Hallows Part 1.
One hell of a good stuff. I can tell you 10 good reasons why you should not only like HP but also watch all HP series.

Harry Potter is not hairy.
No horny lead females and obesessive, overprotective vampire boyfs.
There's gorgeous actors/actress of our age (Granger & Malfoy)
The visual effects are amazing & sort of real.
There are seven novels in total, sold over 400 million copies & translated into 67languages worldwide.
You can literally watch the cast grow up in the series of movies.
Teaches one how love does not exist only in BGR but also family and friends & the importance of it.
A family movie which everyone in the family can enjoy and WILL ENJOY.
The last series (Deathly Hallows has 2 parts, so if you want to be a HP fan now, it's not too late. There will still be suspense!)
J.K Rowling is a very good author. She comes up with the plot of this amazing story & with her imagination & creativity, she 'invented' the magical world with spells & terms. (Muggles & Avada Kedavra)

Well if you still think otherwise, go find a hobby like fishing or something.
Here's some cheap thrill.

"Why do you live?"
"Cause I have something worth living for."

7 Potter Decoys!

Death Eater's Mark

Dumbledore's Will

After the wedding

Nagini

Potter and his son, Albus Severus Potter

OMG SO EXCITED!!!
And it's only 6days from now. I am pretty much excited about it, I re-read Deathly Hallows recently and I'd read it like countless times (my aunt says she said 'Harry Potter again?!' 10 over times already). HAHAHA! Cause thanks to a workshop in sec school, I can speed-read and it will only take me a day or two to finish the book. And when I read, I'm in my own world. I block people out and immense myself into the storyline, hoping to get the real kick of it i guess. Youseeme got angry with me once cause she was beside me, talked to me 4 times and I ignored her.

I'm not a Harry Potter fan cause of the looks of the cast but I'm fancinated by the storyline. How the author created the whole magical world and it's everything. Gonna be on a HP marathon for the weekends with G cause he thinks HP is lame and if he know nuts about HP, then I'm gonna catch the finale with someone else who appreciates it. I did not force him by the way. :D
Thank you G.
(L)

p.s Daniel Radcliffe and Rupert Grint is not really that goodlooking anyway so ya you get the point.

Pig

2010-11-08T21:07:00.002+08:00

I'm so screwed, again. This is a vicious cycle, repetitive and it's harmful to my heart, our hearts. I'm a coward, I simply love to avoid issues and not face them and solving them. But those problems can't be solved no? If not why are they happening and re-happening and re-re-happening again. I don't know why am I doing all that? It makes me wanna just walk away and never look back again. I did not sign up for this. Then whenever I pick myself up and decided to walk away, I can't. There's a circle and I'm in it, I can't get out of the circle you drew, the big circle you drew around us. You evil pig, I'm stuck in a mad-love-hate-situation. Screw it, screw me. I found myself accepting that relationship request you sent. Fuck our lives G, thank you for being so understanding.

And I can't believe what I'm doing again. Snacking when I feel stress. Fuck my life seriously. Fucking fat me.

Clubz

2010-11-03T01:16:00.003+08:00

Ohhhemmmgeeee I just sent out an order for a dress on a blogshop. Okay yahzxz you might think of it as what's the big deal, only a dress right. But for me to shop online is a big thangz okayz. Cause usually the sizes won't fit, and it looks good on the model herself only. But now it's gonna be a breakthrough, it's been years since I'd shopped online. Now I'm like so super duper excited to the max! Like a noob only eh. :/ HAHAHA!

Anyway it's diet day 1 again. And I did 100 sit ups yesterday night and today I did 100 crutches or how to spell aiya I dunno lah. I cannot tahan sit ups anymore, now having muscle aches already. And today only had 3 Redodon cream wafers sticks, like half a bowl of the disgusting pasta from grinning gecko and half a cup of medium red tea at work. Woots! And I don't feel hungry. Tomorrow gonna go down to CDC (again) to make my PDL cause the wait was too long the last time and I gave up waiting. Then gonna go back to school to swim awhile cause training has been cancelled. Hopefully I don't end up soaking water instead, hopefully.

Babysitting G's dogs last thursday till sunday was great and I must admit, it was a tough job. G didn't even helped me until the last day! Most of the time I was alone at his place, don't know what the hell I was doing while he's working his ass off at St.James. Then Halloween celebration at his workplace was pretty enjoyable. My first halloween celebration! Hehe! And my virgin club experience. Not very nice though, cause G came down and pulled us away when we were all enjoying. Tsk! Nevermind, next time then! :)

Face damn whitezxz:(

WHITE FACE AGAIN!

SARAH TAN BAO YU came too!

Liping&Nick!
Lolz.

BabyG! (L)

Love my expressionzx!

And I should be more understanding. Ohhhhh someone at work said I was gentle. And I was like "ehhh?" HAHAHA! What the hell seriously but it's an improvement alreadyyy. G, please take note of this. (L) :D

2010-10-27T02:26:00.000+08:00

I push people away. Sometimes it hurts so bad but still you just wanna hold on to it and let the pain go on. And is heartache considered an emotional pain or physical pain? Somatic maybe, but I was on the verge of giving up. Too tired of everything that's been happening in my life. Cause I had enough of heartaches and tears flowing down my cheeks unknowingly. The grass is always greener on the other side. I was determined, then my heart took over my head. The saying 'Follow your heart' is pathetic.

I'm a believer of 'Nothing is forever'. Now I'm losing all my hopes and faith. I don't wanna believe anymore. The more I care, the more hurt I'll get. Being selfless is killing me slowly but over the years I've learnt not to be selfish and that's that.

I admit that I'm incapable of change. I hoped to be accepted for who I am and what I am. All the good and bad comes in a package. Really stop trodding on ego and esteem, they're about to be extinct in me. So I do comparisons, so what! I can't help it. Take it or leave it I guess.

Again, I don't think I'm capable of change. Outside yes, inside no.

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KOI

2010-10-23T13:33:00.000+08:00

My first three days at KOI was pretty awesome. I did hours of standing and basically my whole body is aching like mad. Can fight with nursing, just much cleaner. Hmm anyway first day was better. Easy and slack but second day was ordering. Quite shitty. The whole queue was long, and it became longer cause of me, I'm too slow seriously. But today was alright. Quite getting the hang of it already. And I had free KOI until I'm gonna be sick of it already. And don't forget the fats ohhh-emmm-geeeeeee ttm.

Anyway was supposed to chill with youseeme and tlp but she couldn't make it last minute so its me and youseeme again. We walked around Bugis, had Ajisen Ramen and KOI ice cream milk tea. Then went Bugis street and I saw a long sleeve button shirt which I like. But its overpriced for Bugis street items. Hmm maybe after payday, which is like three more days! Hehe! :) anyway then I went to work. Now on my way home and got another cup of KOI.

Tmrw is off-day and woots I'm meeting G and maybe we're mj-ing. Super long never play then become damn gian already. And monday most probably koi-ing again. Super no life zzzz.

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Invisible

2010-10-19T22:41:00.002+08:00

Well I hope that I will stop eating this much and I really hope my tummy to be flatter like the post break-up period. The appetite or rather urge to eat everything sucks. Now this time I'm seriously gonna go train those adipose away. Freaking irritating when I wear my suit or shirt. Plus those on my legs, eye-sore! And I don't get why fat people can don't care about their weight and continue eating. Sometimes when I buy clothes, I get demoralized when I need to try on a M or L cause my shoulders are too broad, my thighs too thick.

And tomorrow is training day again, hopefully I will attend training. Motivation and discipline levels go way down as competitions just ended and the next one would be in next year. Very complacent I know and I hate to be complacent. It usually comes with a price. Also tomorrow will be running with MrKwa, Weilun and Huabin! So yay? Well I will certainly get my lazy ass down there and run, at least jog a 5km.

Anyhoo I hope all my debtors would return my long-lost molahh soon, I need a cameroo soon.

Also, tomorrow's a big day for bb! Goodluck and all the best alright, you know you can do it! I know you can! You rock \m/

Bom Bom Pow

2010-10-18T22:02:00.003+08:00

First day of school was crappy, cause I only had two hours of lecture. And that's all the lectures I'm gonna have every week. Sleep-deprived, very. Meeting back schoolmates were great, now it's all left with the few of us and now I think its till death do us apart. We've got no one else but us. And like nobody can stop a guy from watching pornography, you can't stop a Cherlyn from skipping lectures. I did today! :) to have lunch at North and it was too early for me! Thus I ate many many junkie junk junk today. But it was therapy I guess. Cause itchy backside me went to find Doris again despite me knowing the answer. Well I should be spanked on the butt. Cause I went boohoo after that. Then I was mad at everyone else and I felt lousy and fat with more and more boohoos. But then xoxo, Gossip Girl cheered me up and I'm exhausted now.

Anyhoo, what did I do for the past week.

Passed BTT with an amazing score of 48! on Wed. :D
Successful shopping trip/catching up session with Youseeme on Thurs.
Interview and got myself a PTJ at Koi on Fri.
Picnic at Marina Barrage & bonding session at G's for Liping's birthday on Sat.
Date with G on Sun.

Okay I was a busy bee without any money now. Shall go sleep soon too. & I used to think I think too much, guess I was wrong. I'm thinking the perfectly right amount of stuff. And yet again, I proved that a girl's sixth sense plus instinct is always right, with some awesome observation skills of course :)

We’re girls, we get jealous, we will hate that mother fucker who spams your facebook, we tend to assume things, our imaginations go wild. Every second you take to reply, thousands of things goes through our heads ; who you talking to? Is it that mother fucker bitch? We start assuming, and this is when we get insecure. But then.. we’ll try comfort ourselves, we’ll think back to our conversations and make ourself believe you ain’t that type of guy. So don’t disappoint us.
-hellocherlyn.tumblr.com

2010-10-13T02:09:00.001+08:00

Hi everyone. I'm supposed to be asleep as tmrw is an important day for me. But I'm suffering from a serious case of insomnia. Lately I have difficulty faLling asleep, its not like I'm gieeting enough rest you see. Sigh. I'm tired and I wanna rest badly but why the hell can't I fall asleep! Its very frustrating! Everytime I close my eyes, my mind starts thinking of some nonsense like how to make more money (wtf) and how to become skinny (wtfwtf) like what exercise shall I do so I can slim down asap (wtfwtfwtf). Its so lame seriously. And I get palpitations, damn loud my pulse when I close my eyes and try to blank my mind. Zzzzzzz! My bioclock spoil like mad already seriously. I've got comfy bed, two soft pillows, blanket, my baby bloster to hug, dark and quiet environment, aircon plus fan somemore! Why not enough for me to sleep. And plus the fact that I'm dead tired? Why is my mind so awake now? Think is post studying. My mind still having holiday (wp). I need to go study to tire mind maybe? Sigh!

Tmrw how to take test like that? Although its just 50 MCQs but the questions are so tricky and passing is 45! How to pass aiyohhh streSs ttm man zzz! I wanna book ftt one ley! And I was thinking just now, I need to make many many money and save up, like Nick said "Bo lui liao ah!" Weekends still wanna go party, ohmyg *faints* Okay plan, since Yami is taking her own sweet time, I shall try others. (And Yami should be a girl right? The name like gay. And Koi should be a guy) okay nonsense.

And I'm hungry now! I'd better sleep soon! Hopefully. Zz.

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2010-10-10T23:49:00.000+08:00

HELLO EVERYONE,

I MISS G ALOT ALOT ALOT ALOT ALOT!

:D

Awesomeeeeee.

2010-10-10T22:48:00.002+08:00

I wish I had the flithy rich life like some people I know, I want to travel around the world, visit places far away and escape from this tiny island. I once did a list of top fifteen places I would like to visit when I grow up and the top fifteen things I wanna do. Now its buried deep under by the recent posts, if you are curious, find it :) Sigh anyway I was thinking too much again. I wish my brain has a shutdown button so when I can just stop thinking about anything.

I need a break seriously. But again, like my break isn't long enough.
Okayy I have no idea what I'm blabbering about.

Drained.

2010-10-08T21:41:00.000+08:00

Finally I'm able to post from bb. And I think there's something wrong with my bb already. Maybe one day I should do master reset and clear all the stuff inside. Maybe it will 'revive' my bb. But then again everything would be gone and it's gonna be a hassle loading them into bb again. :/

Anyway I'm now on the train home from yishun. Yes training just ended not long ago and I'm physically and mentally drained. Well see I was aching badly from Wednesday's session then today coach make us do the same sets again. It's not tough but the aches made everything tougher than normal. Especially the sit ups, I doubt I can sit up from bed tomorrow morning. But nevermind, all for next year, 7 more months to the next competition.

Hmm and now should I get dinner? :/

Waters

2010-10-06T23:47:00.003+08:00

Back to training, it feels so good to be moving freely in the waters again. We did stroke work just now and it suited me just right. Usually first training after long MIA would be toughshit but today's was just right. Cords didn't really tire me out much and surprisingly it was pretty easy. Swimming after falling ill feels refreshing, especially the regaining of stamina without any wheezing! :) And I did not complain at all! It was job well done today to all who attended training.

Alright I'm actually feeling lazy to update my blog. Partially because I'm not always online now and bb has some problems with the entering of posts to blogger. All is well except the kachings. It has always been the problem and it always will be. I shall stop procrastinating and give yami a call tomorrow. If I get it, then I wouldn't be so tight. :)

Ohhhh and I want my M&S extremely chocolately rings!

Back to GG,
xoxo

Yums!

2010-10-01T23:00:00.001+08:00

MARKS & SPENCER'S EXTREMELY CHOCOLATELY RINGS
!!!
VERY NICE
!!!!!!!!
:D

JayEffect

2010-09-28T01:57:00.003+08:00

Jay Park's Fanmeet on Saturday, 25Sep2010 @ Wavehouse, Sentosa.

IT WAS AWESOME! SO AWESOME I COULD TYPE OUT THISE WHOLE ENTRY IN CAPS!
(okay to spare your eyes)
It was my first ever fanmeet, it's the first time I'm so crazy over a singer but he's not just any singer, he's Jay Park! And moreover, he looks like my eye-candy! Sigh who is sadly serving the nation now & no chance to see him ever since he left school. Okay back to topic, the whole event starts at 7pm and being kiasu Singaporeans, me and Lips reached at 4pm and guess what, the queue was unbelievable. But thank goodness as time passes we realised that we were in the front-middle of the queue. And since it was a free-standing event, it was so worth my time.

When we reached the event venue (inside wavehouse itself), me and Lips were disappointed. The layout wasn't what they promised on the website and there's small area followed by a shallow pool. We being crazy fans ended up in the pool and more crazy fans entered with jeans, shoes, heels and basically everything. Lucky it was below-knee deep and the water turned flithy.

Emcee was Daniel Ong & when Jay Park came out, everyone just went wild. And I took many many videos, its all on fb already! :) No pictures as I got no camera and I took the video using my bb. Jay was mad awesome and so was his dance crew (AOM-Art of Movement). They did some singing & bboy street plus break dance. Then the highlight: Jay ripped his shirt (his signature move) again nearing the end of a song and ahhhh *faints* seriously. He went around singing the rest of the song half-naked, 8pacs and his v-line. Urghhhhhh hahahahaha! I'm going nuts trying to describe it.

SO ALL IN ALL, JAY PARK/ PARK JAEBEOM IS THE BOMB!
I can't believe I wanted to sell of my ticket. Tsk, and thank god I didn't. I'd witness the hottest korean tearing his shirt. WOOOTS!

JAY PARK, SARANGHAE ♥

Transparency

2010-09-27T23:43:00.003+08:00

I wanna go for clinicals so badly & people just keep complaining about dreading to go to work and stuff like that. I would do anything to trade for their shifts and I really wanna do this module badly. It's the same old- You don't know how to treasure it until you've lost it. It's a blessing that they're doing their posting now or rather, it's karma biting back on me. This is just what I deserve for being such a slacker. Well I've been quite busy for the past few days, going out with the girls and the guy and I guess spending many vitamin Ms. :(

Thursday was photoshoot with Que & Lips and I sort of regretted doing it. Although it was quite an experience but seriously I hate being a "barbie doll" with the make up and hairdo and people telling you how to pose for pictures. It feels so unnatural, so not "Cherlyn". Totally. Urghhhh this is so not going to happen again, never. Modelling is so plastic, especially when the model does not get to do whatever she wants but to fulfill the perfection of the photographer's point of view. I guess they only focus on everything about the photo except the model's face. (-.-) That's why I prefer the not so professional way of take pictures- Camwhoring! :D And speaking of which I need to get my semipro soon, Canon Powershot SX210 IS.

It looks like a digital cam but it has partial functions of a DSLR too! Not very bulky, just thicker than your usual digicams!
Here's the specific details.

Then Friday was date with youseeme & ahjia to town. First met up with jia at Yishun and waited for youseeme to end shift (jealoused ttm!) for Laksa with Mr PuppyEyes. Then failed attempt to take polariod pictures cause the polariod had no batteries. Then our supposed shopping trip failed terribly too but we got some pretty comfy petticoat! :) Hmm we had our fair share of gossip and fun that night outside FEP. It's been quite a while since we chatted like that I guess. Or at least for me it is.

Growing up sucks, school's out and everyone is busy with their life now. Attachments, working or enjoying their life overseas and me doing nothing at home. Procrastinating. I want to be forever young, childish maybe but mostly responsibility-free. If only I could......

And tomorrow is exercising day with G. HAHAHA so unbelievable. Bye people! :D

ASHLEYYEOSHIMIN.

2010-09-22T00:00:00.000+08:00

Happy birthday my girl! Finally nineteen like the rest of us and I hope you will enjoy your special day (without any doubt you will), even though you would and will be spending most of your day in the hospital. Well here's something for you. (Be prepared for words babe.)

The first day I met you, I couldn't really remember but I'm sure everyone remembered me on tthe first day of school, I was a joke. But I do remember us going for swim trials together and you were scared off (until today!) and then *fast forward-x10* you went into lifesaving field (am really glad you did!) and us training together after school. Really missed the time when we're still having school, you calling me while I'm walking in from yck mrt station telling me you just woke up and asking for an emergency attendance taking (I memorised your admin number so you owe me for the attendance thingy for basically the whole of year 3's academic year), Yong Tau Foo with fruit juice at North Canteen for lunch and also hanging out at the club room before trainings start, boy watching and gossipping! Also you were there when I needed you the most, urghhh I hate to bring it up but still thank you even though you don't know what to say or how to react to my hysteric cries and weirdo behaviour for almost a month, you were always there, sitting quietly by my side until I had enough and stopped for the day. Wouldn't know what to do without you, so again thank you! :) So I guess we don't owe each other anymore HAHAHHAA! There's many many but if I were to write out each and every one of them, I think blogger would have closed down already.

-p.s I think you better be touched and can start crying now. :)-

Thanks girl for being here by my side always. You were always there to share my joy and my sorrows and I really appreciate that alot. You laugh with me together at things or at people or at our own stupidity or other people's. We talked about everything and anything under the sun and even if we had squabbles ourselves once in a while, we'll end up fine. We've been through a lot during these 3 years and I might not have been the best friend anyone could have but you have never judge me before and accepted for whom I really am. And if we were really Gossip Girls in reality, I would be Blair Waldolf and you would be Serena Van der Woodsons. I'm the scheming, bitchy, manipulative one and you, the nice and understanding one HAHAHHAA! But please spare the boyfriend-bestfriend-sex-thingy I beg you LOL. Okay I've been watching too much Gossip Girls but yeah, no matter what happens I got your back girl, whoever dares to bully you, confirm die. Hahaha okay I think you get the idea. :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

Goodness I should go pray and thank all the gods I know that existed for your presence! We will, shall and must continue this healthy relationship for who-knows-how-long and I want to see you get married first, TEEHEEHEE! I only need to wait 6 more years you know.

Anyway if you survived that long long long long long long post, just want you to stay happy always and enjoy this last year of teenage-hood together (In the hospital mostly thanks to bond). Also thank you once again for being such an awesome friend during these 3 years, can't imagine what's life without you girl. Love you many.

Happy Birthday :)

Current Favourite.

2010-09-21T00:40:00.001+08:00

2ne1- Go Away.

Cloudy.

2010-09-20T23:39:00.004+08:00

Many things happened and yes the last competition of the year is now over and that's something to celebrate about. WSpians did well in this year's Open Water bringing home loads of medals and plenty of smiles. All the aches we're experiencing now are all worth it. Bring it on next year and we'll show them who's boss yeah. I did pretty average compared to the rest, with only 3 events I did not expect anything. Beach has always been my weakest and until today it still is. So I'm just gonna train harder, that's always next year.

Well despite the good performance in Sentosa, I'm not really in celebratory mood. I'm moody, or rather depressed. I could not really find the reason to this sudden emotional turmoil but it's killing me inside. And I don't think things are all going smoothly for me, nothing ever did and yes I cry to sleep so what, everyone cries right and I love to cry, it's the only way to let everything out. I don't wanna talk to anyone, it's not going to help anyway. I will not change my thinking or whatever I'm feeling because of someone's advice and people judge, that's something I hate.

I don't care if anyone wants to judge me but my attitudes, behaviours or character(s), just leave me alone. If I talk loud and am vulgar, that doesn't mean I'm a gangster or ah lian. If my dressing is revealing, that doesn't mean I'm a slut trying to seduce all the innocent pervertic uncles in the train and it doesn't mean I'm not trying to make an effort to protect my virtue.

I would care if the judge is you, G.

Stares

2010-09-15T15:55:00.002+08:00

Mood is low today, guess I woke up on the wrong side of bed. I skipped training, spent the whole day rotting and munching on food and alot of the time thinking. About nonsense again.

Shit crap this is getting on my nerves. Today is so freaking bad. I swear I can kill myself just living through today.

Sunshine.

2010-09-15T01:06:00.002+08:00

Had the last beach training on Sunday and it was seriously tiring, I did my events over and over again till I couldn't feel my arms, probably also due to the aches I'm suffering from after Splashdown the day before. Training was tough but it was just plain tiring. Last competition of the season is only 3 days away but I'm not feeling the jitters still. Something is seriously wrong with me. Sigh.

Also had movie half-marathon these two days. (Cause I did watched a couple of them, but not long enough I guess! HAHA!) And last night was impromtu volleyball at Sentosa with G, Nick & Jeremy! Halfway through the game, two drunk columbia girls walked past and we tried to help them. And hell one tried to get touchy with me. Freaking hell, seriously do I freaking look like a fraking lesbian?! The details just freaks me out urghhhhhh, freaking disgusted by it!

Tomorrow's last training and I should totally make good use of it. My goal just is ahead, just need to put in the last effort tomorrow and then this weekend.

It's no longer do or die, it's gonna make or break me now.

Returns

2010-09-15T00:01:00.003+08:00

Life for me is like a roller coaster ride, it kepts fluctuating up and down and sometimes I get real bipolar(ish). But come to think of it again, I myself made my life so screwed, no one else did. Even if someone really did, how screwed can it be compared to myself screwing up my own life. And the pretend that one has to put up to make things work sometimes is fustrating but no matter, cause putting up a fake front is necessary to avoid all the squabbles which are so un-called for. And to make choices which will make yourself happy is selfish. It's not hard but sometimes it's for the greater good that we made outselves suffer. All for the greater good.

I am who I am today because of the choices I made yesterday. - Eleanor Roosevelt

And yes, the choices I made in the past made me who I am today and note, I do regret some of them (like how freaking fat am I now, why did I stop swimming, why didnt I stopped nursing when I had the chance). For the last point, I really do regret, deeply. I screwed up in 1.1 and I was considering to drop the course in 1.2. You could tell from my attendance and attitude but still I made it through the exams nevertheless. I stayed because of my friends and this might sound stupid but yes, CCA. I should have just stopped then cause now, both my once beloved CCAs, I'm not involved in them anymore.

If only I had a time machine ehhh. But heck, I should be making the best out of everything isn't?

Long

2010-09-11T19:07:00.002+08:00

Friday was Flea Escape with WSapien girls at *Scape! Four of us shared a store and it was a long 7hours all the way till 9pm! I'm very sure all of us were satisfied with our loots that day. Cheap thrills seriously! :D Despite the crampiness and humid/stuffness/very noisy environment we all were great salesgirls (esp the lelong $5 part!) Hehe! Also thank you Xy's boyf for bringing us Koi from Bishan, it was awesome ttm! Okay so I've gotten a bag at $10 (but it was sort of a instant regret seriously -.-), a belt at $10 and a dress at $5 (thanks for xy for buying 2 tops and got discount!). Had to give my cousin's chalet a missed due to flea then rushed home to put my leftover stuff (which is ALOT) then rushed over to Tampines.

I was abandoned in Singapore and I spent (most of) the day at NUS pool with Team WSapiens. The sun was scorching and despite the huge amount of Sunplay SPF 130 slapped on my back, I still got burnt. How badly, I would not know till later won't I? Now I'm just red. :/ And sooooo, I completed 100laps (5km) in 2hours flat! Could've gone faster but due to the constant "jam" in the lanes, I stopped quite alot of times- all the NUS guys chionging for the "most lap swam" prize which is like a medal and some free gift (wah piang got money go NUS no money buy bags and arena stuff meh?) Ended up with alots of people knocking into each other and some of them are really very rude! One guy went underneath me and knocked into me when he surfaced, from the bottom, like hello where's your brains? Got brains go NUS then no common sense isit? Freaking pissed while swimming but yeah I got my revenged though, I kicked some of them on purpose :) Then WS slacked while some of them collected their prizes and then we went over to Holland V to have our very late lunch (at 4.30pm!). Everything with Fries is seriously yumz! HEHE Finally these kind souls accompanied me to eat, have been wanting to go for ages! And after that we had free Frolicks! Cause for every 2 laps swam, one rubber band is collected and I collect 50 rubber bands so I got goodies bag and lap prizes! One of it is $5 Frolick voucher, and there's a free topping voucher in the goodie bag inself! HEHEHE Frozen ftw! :D

Was planning to mahjong as initial plan with Jas was cancelled. But we were all worned out from the swim. And now I'm here waiting for someone to be back from JB. Argghhhh waiting sucks!

:(

Fumbles.

2010-09-10T00:23:00.002+08:00

Why do you cry?

Mine is due to heartbreaking issues.

Alone.

2010-09-09T13:39:00.002+08:00

I'm not someone who can do things alone, I'd rather be in a big group of wild, crazy people than to be eating lunch myself. Like AYSM, I'm rather dependent on friends. And being alone kind of means hell for me, not having people to talk to, text with. 48 hours is going to pass so darn slowly. It's going to be very quiet for the next few days, at least until Saturday. People are all going over to Malaysia over the long weekends and me, stuck here like a pathetic little ------ (wanted to type kitten but it sounds disgusting to be using it on me). I've kind of made plans for the next two days already, but still I feel very alone. Is it really just me cause I get this feeling of abandonment? Bahhhh whatever man seriously.

If all goes well, it's flea market store at Scape with WS girls, then training at night. Sat morning will be Splashdown at NUS and then meet Jas at night for dinner. Hopefully time will pass fast enough. :)

And yesterday I had a piece of awesome news. Relay events are taken into consideration for qualifications into Arafura trials! It's like a new form of motivation for me to train even harder! Hehee. Confessed to coach yesterday that I wanna get into Arafura and he said bluntly, you need to put in alot of effort in open water. Sigh, even though I know that already but still it's quite demoralizing to hear. Yesterday's training was very slack yet it was tiring. And coach kept pushing me, guess I'm really not good enough. Sigh, nevermind, will not stop swimming because of that.

Go Cherlyn :)

Puzzles.

2010-09-08T02:13:00.004+08:00

Mahjong yesterday was (teeheehee) superb cause I won money! And I nearly did a XIAO-SAN-YUAN! Woots but also ended up winning $$ from that round. Should have taken a picture of my tiles, was darn lucky to get that kind of hand. If you know nuts mahjong, then ignore the above. Cause I'm quite confused about it also, I only know how to pong, chi, game and collect money hehehe!

And I didn't update on my weekends, so this is what I did. Saturday was party over at Aaron's Crib! To Aaron: I TELL YOU I LOVE YOUR PLACE! The roof is awesome! :D And it was alot of eating, surprises (I hope they were successful), urmz cam-whoring and oh ya, dance battling. Party success! And from looking at the pictures, I must say the lightsticks played an important role that night! Okay then watched movie and after that knocked out till noon the next day. And had prata at Casuarina! :) And mugged all my Sunday away.

Caught "Vampire Sucks" just now at E!Hub and it was really -.- to the max. Seriously got nothing to say. And I'm gonna miss someone for the next few days. :( Hokay so now I'm a free-girl and that's that. I should really do something to occupy my time, like training. Have not been training for a good two weeks already. And competition is 2 weeks away!! Gonna train real hard, my short-term goal is so within reach already. I just need to push myself more. But still I lack one more individual event to qualify. If only they would include the relays, sigh.

Happy Birthday Aaron :)

Redemption

2010-09-06T23:04:00.000+08:00

The last paper was indeed quite demoralising. Well my attitude was the one which should be blamed but nonetheless the paper was pretty sucky. Its okay for MCQs to be tricky but seriously I rather do 3 SAQ than 70MCQ, makes my eyes go @.@ totally. And couldn't they set a better question? Urmz it's like the answer could be this and that (not OR) and we are right darn confident about the correct answer. In the end, the clever Ms TLP wrote "type 2-3 hypovolaemic shock". Dead clever she was but still, what done is done, we can't change anything now too. Sigh.

Was at Ikea with Youseeme, MrTan and BruiseLor after the paper and was enjoying the meatballs! :) then we got onto a cab with a road-idiot (translate to chinese) cabbie who doesn't know the way to Tampines from Tampine Ikea. -.- And Mr Bruise was so confident of the way back that he gave directions till we ended up at near Hougang! Bahhhhh~ Gonna post this on fb too!

Okay shall go back to mahjong naoooo~ Win more moneyyyy! Hehehee youseeme lose like siao now lololx!

Ciaoz~

Snow.

2010-09-03T20:17:00.002+08:00

Half-dead. It's been a long while since I've felt this way really. There was no ending to the sadness, it's flooding inside me, drowning me in those sad thoughts. Then I found myself walking aimlessly and just wanting to waste time away, with tears flowing again. I've said something I shouldn't, didn't something I shouldn't, acted like I shouldn't.

The couple that fights the most is the one most in love. it shows they care enough to notice the other one screwed up & care to fix it.

Are we really.

Gone.

2010-09-02T23:14:00.002+08:00

Firstly, thank you everyone who attended my birthday chalet. It was a blast no doubt and hope you guys enjoyed yourself too.

Chalet was fun with many many ups and a few downs! Hah but everything went smoothly and I'm glad I had this chalet, my last celebration of 'teenage-hood' was great! I had too much fun during chalet and got hangover the next day, couldn't sleep and couldn't really study and couldn't do anything. And whiteberry got activated! HEHEHE! :D

Next, tomorrow is management paper. One hour with 30 MCQs & 2 choose 1 SAQ (50%). Wasted my time really. Now I'm left with e-lectures which is in my whiteberry now. Gonna read them up later.

Suddenly got mind-block. Siao liao if tomorrow mind-block then die. But no matter, would have another module to accompany the existing. :/

2010-09-02T21:26:00.001+08:00

It's amazing much how hurt words could bring and physical pain that one can feel reaches a point when nothing could be done to relieve it. You would just want to sit down and stare into blank space. There's no fighting back the tears, more just kept pouring down. This is love. Affected by something so minor, it could be ignored by others but no, I did not choose to bother, my heart did. And people say follow your heart.

BB

2010-09-01T23:39:00.000+08:00

Hello world :)
BB rocks your underwear more than your socks! :D

2010-08-30T14:53:00.000+08:00

Note to self:

No matter what happens, please be on your best behaviour for the 3days.

Rewind.

2010-08-28T23:29:00.004+08:00

Hello world,
do you know white is the new black?
Ohmygod (!!)

The "Whiteberry" is in action.

Doodles.

2010-08-26T21:27:00.002+08:00

I don't really know what to blog about today. I had something on my mind this afternoon and having short-term memory is not doing me good. Nothing ever stays in my brain for long, just like my lectures notes and all the knowledge. Whatever man seriously!

I have goals but also have a fear of people mocking at me and my goals - Getting into the Arafura Games 2011. It's a sporting event held in Australia, Darwin and being able to attend it as a sportsman meaning getting into Team Singapore Lifesaving. Criteria is top 8 position for 4 individual events and it's already two down, so two more to go? I don't even think I have enough individual beach events. Dang, life's so sucky sometimes. Hopefully they would take relay events into account. I want, I want, I want it so badly. Gotta train hard, after my papers. Now I should mug hard.

Blackberry Bold 9700 (White), I'm so getting you tomorrow, Teeeeheeeeheeeeeeee~

& I could eat Mac's Cinnamon Melts all day long, so darn sweet! But then again the nutritional facts:


Total :	460	170	19	9	0	15	370	66	3	32	6	150	0	70	2.5

Think I shouldn't eat it too often ehhh.
The fat became fatty then gonna become fatty bombom. :((((

Note.

2010-08-25T00:20:00.002+08:00

It's already 25th and August would be coming to an end. I've pretty much wasted the whole month away, playing and eating way too much. Exams in 2 weeks time and competition in 3, sometimes I question my ability to prioritize my responsibilities. I've been playing and playing, enjoying my study-break and forgetting what is this break actually for-Study.

I ask myself way too much questions and make myself think and reflect. I call this spending some quality "alone time" with myself. This is the time which I block everything out and it's just me and "the voice in my head" questioning each other about the every single thing that matters in my life. Nope I'm definitely not hallucinating and you've just got to admit, sometimes you find yourself talking to yourself in your head. (Like now, you're asking if you really did talk to yourself sometimes.)

Do you ever felt neglected by someone important? Sometimes, I do.
I think I'm thinking too much, yet again.

Crushed.

2010-08-22T03:43:00.003+08:00

Life isn't sad at all, the eally sad part about it is knowing that the one who screwing up your life is yourself. It has always been me. And the good old brains took so long to process, after all the losses and unnecessary unhappiness. I hope I'm not too late. It's not the same anymore, the feeling is growing and it's taking control. Same old, follow your heart cause whatever your brain thinks, your heart will know that it's a lie cause it's your heart that feels the pain, not your brain. Crushed and cast aside, it's all I deserve. Happiness appears to be within reach and opps, I'd totally missed out that thick glass wall in front of me. Fate is toying with me, playing with my feelings. I'm dying inside, really. When I thought everything is going well, something just had to come and bring me down. It's a routine I guess, I really shouldn't get too comfortable with my life. Sometimes I wish I can tear myself, take the bloody heart out and throw it away. Yes I won't be able to feel anything, not happiness but also, no more heartaches. I can totally live with it, emotionless, at least it doesn't hurt that bad. But I'm willing to endure it all, it's worth (I hope, I really hope and can only hope). Pathetic you are damn pathetic.

I just want to be alone and cry my hearts out. Even though it doesn't solve anything, I would feel better, maybe it's just me. And I thought I'm supposed to stay happy and be happy, why am I crying again.

You should try reading my tumblr, sometimes I say the unspoken there.

Colour.

2010-08-20T23:06:00.004+08:00

Funny how words can make a great deal to make someone happy and do a one-eighty change to one's emotions. The thoughts that were in my mind a while back, I did a pretty bad job shutting them it. Well the truth is after a few feeble attempts, I gave up trying to shut them. Now those thoughts are running wild now or rather, they're on a wild rampage, creating chaos and stirring the emoshitz out of me. Seriously, it's so bothering me. Big time.

Study session today was a big screw-up. I did notes but nothing went into this peabrain of mine, literally. And as usual I ended up dozing off on my lecture notes. They're pillows, like how the lecture tables are like beds. Anyway my arms and back ached like shitz (or even worse) after that nap and I couldn't put on my jacket, tq youseeme for helping me. That's how pathetic I am after a sudden return to training after 2 weeks of hiatus. So I gave today's session a miss and went to Bugis and had gotten fatter. I was being a bitch yet again. This cycle just kept going on & on. Fuck life sometimes.

Well tomorrow is going to be so awesome. Flea early in the morning with the girls, then another "planned" study session (let's see how it goes) then am gonna visit this silly boy at work and here comes the awesome part, chillax session at Timbre with the coolio peeps. \m/ Life couldn't get better.

And silly, you're just too good to be true. :)

Ribbons

2010-08-18T13:25:00.002+08:00

Compromise.

I'm happy, are you?

Bang!

2010-08-17T20:42:00.003+08:00

Diet day 2 failed 10times more terribly than yesterday but nevertheless I was in a pretty good mood, a 8/10 day! 2 points deducted due to the stupid mouth and the absence of you. The last 12 hours was superb and I'd enjoyed every single minute of it, even the talk-it-out part. It will only make us stronger, won't it? And thinking back, it hurts a little and the way I reacted was a little funny, hmm "like a what only". But neh-mind, at least now we know don't we.

Alright tomorrow tomorrow I'm gonna go training and whee it's gonna be good man, it'd better be good. And if all goes well, I'm gonna go down to Sentosa for PFT on Thursday rather than the "planned" Sunday, 4 days is just way too long. Well anyhoo I need to manage my money now cause no matter how smoothly things can turn out to be, mine will always be a whole lot rougher than the others. So yeah, brace yourself for the worst silly girl. And this time I swear I'm not thinking too much, it's just cold, hard fact.

Ohhh coach asked me to make a wish-list to facilitate "gift-buying" for my birthday. Hehehehehe, I don't mind penning my "WANTS" down but it's like a so thick skin only HAHAHA but nevermind I think I should go think about them like now and best produce it by coming Friday. And my ah ma is damn efficient, this afternoon she took care of the BBQ utensils already. Best lah she! Wooooooooooooooooots! \m/

There's more to life than anyone could think about, I'm pretty happy today. My secondary 4 form-teacher is a Daddy now, and the baby's a girl! So cool and he's married to this another teacher in school, which we (myclass) have been rumouring about. It's scandal cause they've never admitted to it but some of us spotted them together outside (quarreling) HAHA! But nevertheless, happy for him. Don't know why I'm so happy not like the baby's mine, but then again if I were to have a baby now I wouldn't and shouldn't be this happy I think I would cry till I go blind and go jump down the tallest building in Singapore to ensure my death. Okay this is crap.

There's this spree going on at forever21.com, sorry for the choice of word but SIBEI TEMPTING AH I TELL YOU!!! Urghhhhh, the dresses are like ...................... okay speechless. I want! but I can't! Urghhh seriously this feeling is like shit, probably 10 times worse than shit itself. And also that Red Vans shoes. Damn life, if I can spend money without worrying being broke at all. Okay I should stop typing cause it's all so material, and I hate materialism. :(

What a long post! Wowing at myself now. And you reading now should go do something more useful.
xoxo, :)

Hit

2010-08-16T18:28:00.003+08:00

I should probably do something useful like stop eating and doing some exercise but yet again, I lacked the self discipline to do self-training. It'd always has been the barrier which I've been unable to overcome. Some sportsman huh, lack the discipline to train to become better. Maybe that's why I'm no good at all. Pissed anyway I'm aching from training yesterday again. :/

Diet day 1 was a complete failure, my mouth has been itching for food the whole day literally. Self-discipline and self-restrain, I so need you now.

Up

2010-08-15T22:06:00.003+08:00

Nobody is perfect, so stop looking for the perfection in someone. It's all about looking pass the imperfections and making everything else work. Nobody is made for one another and two very different being together is no easy task. You need to learn about that person, get used to the person, change that person then try to live with that person. It's only human nature to pick on each other, we need to learn how to compromise.

I had a 6/10 points day today. It started with a very cold beach training, running, swimming with more running and swimming then running. And today was also a VERY painful day as my period cramps decided to visit me in the afternoon. Very nearly died trying to walk to Bugis only to be crushed yet again, but everything's settled now. There's no need to look back into the past cause we need to learn from all mistakes no?

And I'm freaking fat now, need to diet already can fatasspigheadporkchop. Stop eating lah, urghhhhhhh zzzz!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY OCK BFF! :)

Inception

2010-08-14T23:00:00.007+08:00

Dreams, they either makes no sense at all, or they will represent part of your life, reflect the deepest desire you've been longing for or bring out worst fear which you have been repressing.
When one dreams, the subconscious mind takes over and everything runs wild. Your dream represent you, your thoughts and your fear. I'm sorry to be part of those dreams, I'm sorry to be part of those nightmares. I'm sorry for the kind of storyline those dreams had. I'm sorry I had to star in them. I'm sorry to implant those thoughts into you, it's accidental. I would never do such a thing. I caused all of your anxiety, I caused all those worries. If dreams were to appear in reality, it wouldn't hurt so much while I'm typing this. Dreams are not supposed to hurt, you can't feel pain in a dream. I didn't know I caused so much insecurities, it's really disappointing, not you but me. You need your very own totem, to keep in touch with reality.

Dreams always turn out to be the opposite of reality. And yes, national babe or not, I won't let it turn into reality. Nothing's gonna hinder us.

Hey boy, smile cause you're worth it. :)

And as for me, I need some emo-shitz again.

Scale

2010-08-14T13:30:00.003+08:00

Today I'm gonna be superficial, so superficial that you might just wanna close your window once you start reading the first sentence of the next paragraph. So brace yourself for the superficial me.

How I envy all the skinny people in the world. (Are you still reading?) To me, they're blessed with the most wonderful thing in the world- being able to enjoy food without the worry for gaining pounds. They do not face the fear of getting up the scale and seeing the numbers, they do not worry about unsightly bulges and they look good in (almost) everything. Sharp face, skinny arms, long fingers, flat tummy, small hips, straight thighs & calf, pretty feet. The pretty things, I do not have, sad. Okay this is so not like me to talk about these impossible wants.

Face it, there's nothing much I can really do but wait. I should find something to occupy my longlonglong holidays. I'm not gonna be out on clinicals anyway, so I should really do something useful rather than lazing my ass off at home. Everyone would be real busy with work, except me. Die man! Just die!

Sigh.

Deny

2010-08-13T00:35:00.003+08:00

I love my life now, pretty much everything. Happy and somewhat contented, this is something which I hadn't been feeling for awhile. I had a great time with the girls shopping at town then meeting the guys for dinner. And the past few days were occupied, not wasting my holidays away. Great holidays so far, hopefully nothing will change.

Okay something JUST changed. I'm not being posted for my clinicals. Thank you I shall take back all my happiness and contentment. I should be jolly well prepared for this but fuck, I'm screwed big time!

Oh mask, when I need you, I will take you out and put you on. And you know you have been my best friend for so many years. You have hidden my sorrow from the rest, they do not know and they shall not be known. You understands me the best and you helped me in times of need. Mask oh mask, when can I put you away for good, I feel so dependent on you. Sometimes I freaking hate being so fake, not to others but to myself.

This is life. To make yourself happy for the moment, live in denial. I'm crying inside but who cares, fml.

Mundane.

2010-08-10T13:02:00.002+08:00

Life was so much more interesting when it was a school day. Holidays just started and I'm already bored of it. Yes no doubt studying is boring too and friends is prolly my only reason to go for class and now, hanging out with them outside school is hell awesome but it also means decrease in monetary assets! Cheap hangout place, anyone know intro pleasez! This morning I found myself staring at facebook & the funny thing is, facebook stared back. There's no updates, no nothing, everyone's either at work, at class or still in bed. And ask me why I woke up early when I could sleep in, it's because of a phone call. But the phone call was good, very darn good in fact (Y) So no complains here. Ohhh and I got a bit depressed when I saw my bank balance the other day, I'm such a poor thing now, so poor, cashless, broke.

Conclusion, I need to work.

Listen

2010-08-09T14:49:00.002+08:00

There's always been something about me and sleep, we just couldn't get along. I need sleep, but sadly I don't think sleep even likes me at all. It's always avoiding me, and when we finally have some quality time to ourselves, it's always short-lived.

Yesterday was like this > Beach training with loads of run,swim,run & MORE running. Basically my whole leg feels wobbly now and the muscles are so tight that it could jolly well cramp up anytime now. Went East Coast Park, had dinner. Mahjonged and lost monnehhhh~ Sleep deprived now but it's okay, at least I'm happy. ANYTHING FOR MAHJONG, it's worth it! :D

Hmm gonna start studying for exams this week and I need to stop spending money. :(

Hoops

2010-08-08T17:11:00.003+08:00

We need to realise that nothing can be perfect, we should be contented with what God blessed us with. Pursuing perfection is no doubt satisfying but it can be a tedious process. Personally, I see no point in finding perfection in everything little thing but in turn, making yourself miserable, affected by every setback you faced. The sense of achievement vs the tedious process (physically&emotionally), what would you choose? Are you the type of person who looks at only the product or are you the kind who prefers the process? I'm more of a process kind of person, no doubt product is important, but as long as one stay happy during the process, any good product will be a bonus. :)

I'm happy now, was searching on the font for my tatts. Most prolly birthday present for myself. And as I grow, I don't really look forward to my own birthday anymore, it's like celebrating myself getting old. Birthdays should be a happy occasion, but how can one be happy over the fact that she is getting older? How ironic! Tsk, gonna do it big for my last teenage year & maybe stop birthday celebrations from next year onwards. This is quite depressing really. :/

Spins

2010-08-07T22:50:00.002+08:00

Where do one find happiness in this hectic life, where everything moves so quickly together with time. There is indeed no meaning to life, we should be living it, not living in it. We should just do whatever we want, enjoying it to the fullest with minimal worries. Cause life is full of regrets, disappointments, "what if"s and no one can avoid it.

To find happiness, in you. :)

Taste

2010-08-06T16:46:00.003+08:00

Everything comes to an end. For the twenty of us, it ended great. Some of us love each other to the deepest point of hell and some of us till today never did meet eye to eye, but it was a good 2 years of memories worth keeping, no? In the years we had our fair share of joy & laughter and now it's time to bid farewell. I had a great time yesterday, spending the last day of school with my classmates. Class bonding, something which was so important during secondary school days. When poly started, the class was very much divided into small cliques, poly classmates were "different" then those in secondary school. Be it age-gap or difference in thinking, we still love each other. Now everything had ended, we will be off fending for ourselves in the working life, I will definitely miss all of them.

Lunch Buffet @ Sakura, bowling @ Kallang, dinner @ ChompChomp then chilling session @ LiquidKitchen with awesome classmates & Aaron (I'm not allowed to call him "cher" anymore!) The company was great and so was the ambience @ LiquidKitchen, classy, I like! (Y) The guys had their own brother talk & we girls did some girls-talk too. Funny how we girls can shift topics so quickly & how much we found out about people around us. We ended up snacking like nobody's business and me ended up feeling guilty today. Sigh. Okay so some of them got tipsy & it was quite funny watching them knocking the drinks over, acting funny. That's the best part! :)

Also, Dear Aaron, I do hope you had an awesome time like we did & we're all going to miss you so much (duh, like you don't know it yet) Thank you for the 6months in school and for yesterday, spending so much on the seven of us! Anyway we should meet up again for catching up session & all the best in your new job :)

Hokay I just realised that tomorrow's gonna be my mum's birthday & I've totally forgotten about it (the usual absent-minded me) Gonna go get present for her nownownownownow~!

p.s It doesn't matter if a person doesn't like you, the thing is, do you like that person?
Let's all live & let live. :)

Over

2010-08-04T20:28:00.003+08:00

Last day of school tomorrow, three years passed in a flash. There are bound to be times that I would miss so badly and they would be leading their own lives after this, I truely hope everyone can make some effort keeping in touch with each other. Class outing tomorrow, it's gonna be blast! :)

I've always heard those sayings, "Always expect the unexpected", "Don't judge a book by it's cover", "Looks can be deceiving". It is hard to let go, it is no doubt one of the toughest thing to do but then again, suffer for a moment then to suffer long-term holding onto something which has no value anymore. There can be no room for mistakes in a relationship, at least not a mistake like this. Overboard, too much really. Hopefully you can realise this, sorry if I was harsh or too straight just now. You just need to know.

Okay I need to chill too, get some rest and feel better tomorrow. It's the last day of school, woots!

Break.

2010-08-03T00:20:00.003+08:00

Breakthrough. I was totally contented despite all the minor setbacks. I'm expecting total body aches when I wake up tomorrow.

August started out very wet over at Kallang where competitors were freezing doing their events. WaterSapiens did well, and we can do even better, just one more month! Personal achievements, broke all my personal bests and realises the importance of mental strength. I met my goals this nationals, which was to give it all for relays which I did. We gotten bonuses too- 1bronze&2sliver medals. My first few medals in National lifesaving event, thank you all :) Individual events, both in 8th placing and rope was as disappointing as ever. Shouldn't talk about it anymore, only makes me feel like crying, sigh. Now new found motivation, new goals, twenty-eleven I will do even better. Napfa today was a little disappointing, I missed my gold all thanks to standing board jump alone, I'd even broke my own PB in 2.4k run. I was pretty amazed by my own time, I didn't know I could even achieve it. Gotten a bronze, but still better than none though, pretty wasted :/

I like this feeling- the feeling of being taken care of. Finally. :)

Booms

2010-08-01T00:42:00.002+08:00

Anxiety levels increasing at a tremendous speed, I'd just viewed the event booklet for tomorrow's competition. Should I be glad or sad when I'm competing side by side against my friends? Should I feel a tinge of relieve or should I feel even more stressed up? Sports psychology, I need a moment with myself really, just me and my events. I was really determined to just go and do my best, not worrying about winning cause no matter what, it's do or die (terribly). But now, I need to chill. I'm exhausted, both physically and mentally, I should go text someone, he will make me feel better :) And go rest. No matter what, I'm gonna give it all. GO WATERSAPIENS!

& Hello August, will you be good to me?

Blissed

2010-07-30T23:30:00.010+08:00

Grow.

2010-07-30T01:32:00.003+08:00

Hooots, life's gonna get so much more interesting as days go by. Today is bipolar-day as my brain goes haywired and emotion fluctuates. Day rating: 5, people who make my day, break my day so yeah, life's pretty fair. So overall it's not that bad. Been spenting too much of Vitamin M (as usual). So I went to town today, intending to watch a movie but ended up with no movies but shopping again. Gotten a pair of pumps (I LIKE IT ALOT!), a shorts and a dress from F21. Seriously turning into a F21 person. I should so totally avoid shopping malls and blogshops, anywhere which can make me broke, I should avoid. Abstinence is key.

As we grow, our perception of things changes. We mature. How amusing it was to think back 10 years ago, boy-girl relationship is a "eeeeewwww or a yucks! thing", then 5 years later, it's a in thing, "wah people got bf/gf, I also want!", and now, things get pretty serious or at least for me and the girls. It's not puppylove anymore, it's for real. Maybe that's why I get affected so easily. I grew out of that teenage perception of being in love, what I want is not fancy gifts or big surprises, what I want is comfort, security and what-so-ever. What's yours?

People make mistakes and as long as they learn from it, it's worth forgiving. We should not give up on the things we love, the process will definitely be sweeter than the product. Everyone is born with two eyes to see, a nose to breathe, two ears to hear, and a mouth to talk, not so much on the snogging. Compromise is a key factor to maintaining a good relationship with people, so talk things out, give and take. I will, will you?

I should chill. We only live once, so why so serious. I need a chill-pill seriously. I'm only 18. :)

Loops

2010-07-28T23:39:00.002+08:00

Today was good, rate it 6/10points cause there's many ups and there's downs. I had my last presentation and it was pretty good I feel, at least there's not much mistakes in our slides. And then was Biathlon, the event was being delayed by an hour and I thought I could make it in time for training. It ended at 8, so darn late. Well didn't know my swim timing and placing but I did pretty well! Didn't slack and gave in all my best, and my run-partner was so darn fast in the last 200m sprint! Thanks man, for the encouragement, no matter what the placing, we both did well. :)

I'm apologize for being a bitch just now, it's my bad. Hopefully it will make us stronger. Thank you :)

Tomorrow gonna be a good day too. And for sunday, I really don't wanna put any stress on myself anymore. There's this famous saying in my secondary school, "What you believe is what you will achieve." It's do or die on Sunday, so just treat it like a training session and it will be over.

G.O.C.H.E.R.L.Y.N.!

Peekaboo!

2010-07-27T22:37:00.002+08:00

Yesterday I'd said tomorrow will be a better day and yes indeed, today was a great day! Morning was Mr Aaron's farewell party and had an awesome time with FYP mates. Then was self-training all the way till night which was pretty awesome too. I'm "on-form" today and everything went smoothly. Hopefully I will be performing better coming Sunday, but I've learn not to put much hope as high hopes only lead to greater disappointment. I should just go and complete the events with no pressure and if I win, I win. All out for relays. Go WSapiens, let's go and have some fun! :D

I'm having smalls blister wound on my toes, sepak and rope injuries again. Sigh but heck if I do well during Nationals, everything would be worth it. And tomorrow's Pol-ite Biathlon, also praying hard that I would not come in last, not intending to get any placing but not last, that's good enough for me.

I should stop munching on nonsense cause after all I've been through to lose those fats, I do not want them back!! Urghhhhh, I need to lose more adipose tissues, they are sickening to the max. What an eyesore seriously! :(

Sleep well tonight, tomorrow will be even better! :D

Choices.

2010-07-27T00:29:00.005+08:00

I'm done with the slides for the last presentation of my school life in poly. And I'm left with 8 official school days and I'm done with school. So gonna miss everyone so much. It's a pity that everyone only got bonded in year 3 but nevertheless it's good. Despite the conflicts we faced, we should remain as friends in the future, it's fate that brought us together as a class, we should honour it. :) I should quit whining about being stressed up by competition, school and what so ever cause I made choices and I have to live with it. Sorry for being such a bitch. Pms-ing now too, today I've experienced one of my worst mood swings throughout the day, can be smiling and laughing and the next moment, staring and glaring at people feeling fked up. Monthly affairs, cannot help it. And did I mention that I'm quite in love with balloons and I've been secretly hoping for something. I'm finally acting like a girl for once. :)

Okayz so now I'm dead tired, gonna crash into my bed soon after this.

We do not need a reason to feel this way, we do not owe people any explainations nor living. We just need to stay happy, cause now you make me wanna do many things with you, just you and no one else. It can be happy-ever-after or happy-never-after. Again, it's choices. Sorry.

Anguished

2010-07-26T01:06:00.003+08:00

On and on people around you make an impact in your life, some did just earlier on today. I was totally disappointed with myself cause I could not exercise self-discipline and let people down. They trusted me and I broke my own promises, such a let down. I couldn't get pass my own conscience. I'm gonna be nineteen soon, I should be mature and responsible enough, for this is the path that I chose, this is what I love isn't it. Why is this happening, urghhh. Tension is building up inside me, it's a week away and I do not expect much from myself cause I've really been slacking much ever since June. I'm such a waste, I'm such a let down. Fuck seriously why am I doing all these nonsense to make me feel so fucking disappointed with myself. Fml seriously.

Don't tell me it's okay cause it's definitely not, wait till sunday. I'm pretty sure I will have an emotional breakdown, it's a standard routine during compeition for me to cry. Cause I care why too much and put in way too little effort.

Fucktard.

Warmth

2010-07-22T12:50:00.002+08:00

Everything happens for a reason, everything happens for a reason. So whatever is going on with my life now I should just accept it. Anyway I'm really happy now and I shouldn't feel vexed now. On contary I feel relieved that things are going smoothly now and not the other way round. July really a good month for me, at least till now. I should just go with the flow and stop creating unnecessary problems for myself. Cause I will be happy and everyone else will be too. That's enough.

Fyp event yesterday was superb and despite me putting in so little effort (my booth is relatively easy to handle), I've gotten an A, well everyone else did. So yippeee yooooo another reason to be happy. Ohh training was great, despite not swimming for a week I still have the water feel but now my biceps are aching like mad, did some events and I can only conclude that I need to train super hard. It's only one more week till the big day. Now I pray for a better August. :) Ohhhh I have six events in still water, im so not gonna be okay next sunday. :(

Confused

2010-07-20T09:40:00.003+08:00

Many things happened over the weekends and after yesterday I felt a tinge of relieve. But nonetheless my emotions are still having a war and my id and superego are also debating about what's the right thing to do. But heck, I will never forgive myself for doing so cause it's going against my principles of life. I'm going to stay happy, worry less and smile everyday. Cause my life is being condemned and I'm going to the deepest point of hell after I die, tartarus if it really existed. Urghhh sometimes I just wish I had made the other choice but life sucks and nobody can change it. fml.