Candiesforyou

We all try to be positive and tell ourselves to let it go, be happy and that everything will be alright eventually. We stay strong not for ourselves but for the people around us. We smile so that we can put a smile on their face. We hide that frown so we would not see that on their faces. Masked. Pretenders.  Humans, just human.   Endure.  We all have that secret we don't tell. Don't we. 

DO YOU LOVE POTATOES???? I KNOW I DO!  POTATO LOVERS IN THE WHOLE WORLD UNITE FOR THIS POTATO WORSHIP ENTRY. HOW VERSATILE CAN POTATOES BE...... ALL SHAPES AND SIZES, SOFT OR HARD, HEALTHY OR UNHEALTHY, DRY OR WET, FOR THE OLD OR YOUNG, FIT OR UNFIT, POTATOES ARE PERFECT AND NO MATTER WHAT,  POTATOES STILL TASTE AWESOME!! WELL HERE WE GO. MASH POTATOES BAKED POTATOES BOILED POTATOES FRIED POTATOES STRAIGHT CUT FRIES  CRISS CROSS FRIES CURLY FRIES SMILEY FRIES HASHBROWNS ROSTI GRATIN  POTATO SALAD POTATO CHIPS POTATO CAKES ... .. . ALRIGHTY... DONT ALL OF THE ABOVE MAKES YOUR MOUTH SALIVATE?  I'm a huge fan of potatoes and I would kill for them, literally. Potatoes is a good source of Carbohydrates and the starch will get converted to the energy you need for the day! Any potato lover know that the right amount of potatoes would do us some good but too much of them, you're g...

My pride, my ego, my needs and my selfish ways. I should really stop punishing people for things that aren't their fault. I had been way too selfish and its always the people hurting are those closest to me. The feeling of rejection from those closest to you hurts the most badly but its what I deserve. All those 'not good enough's will never be good enough. One can never the internal struggle that I'm experiencing right now, trying to justify my own thoughts and feelings.  Eternal damnation. Fatal flaw. I have a lovely man who stood by me despite all odds for the past twenty-three months. In another twenty days we will turn two. How quickly time flew and I truly believe that I can't find any other better man. He had never once given up on me. Through all my selfishness, he chose to stay and continued to shower me with his love, being there for me when I was down, giving in and giving up his own pride and ego while tolerating my nonsense. I love him, but...

 Ever wonder about what he's doing,  how it all turned to lie. Sometimes I think that it's better,  to never ask why.   All these insecurities are eating me alive.  Inferior. The feeling of never being good enough.  Everything, Not good enough.  Ever worried that it might be ruined,  does it make you wanna cry? 

Need to find my release.  I'm young, in the pink of health. Should I really be craving a career for myself? I'm really having second thoughts about continuing my job. Every now and then I have people hurling abuse at me and my fellow colleagues. What did we do to deserve this kind of treatment. Being unwell doesn't give people the privilege to be unkind, to be mean. Take all frustration somewhere else but not on people who are trying to help. Genuine care or not, I believe we are trying our best and what do we get in return, complain letters and negative feedbacks. If a patient  needs to have physical, emotional and psychological support to get well, what about nurses? Do we not need them to stay focus and healthy as well?  Greed. Man are never contented and will never be. Whatever nurses do, it will never be enough. We are there to attend to patients every needs. Patients come to the hospital for nursing care, not for medical treatments. Doctors don't monitor ...

University life.  Finally started school after a year of working. Well, history is repeating itself. I'm 30minutes late for class and I fell asleep during lecture. And today is only orientation. We talked about assignments and researches, journals and articles, quoting, paraphrasing and referencing. HOW GREAT CAN LIFE BE.  I wish myself luck, plenty of luck.  I wanna feel her hands in my hands, feel the heat from her skin, get reckless in the starlight

One day. This feeling sucks. What's new? I don't know who is here for me now, at least i have someone in the past. Got to suck it up and deal with it. I run away, i always do. And i knew something like that is going to happen. Forewarned. But i took a leap of faith and i'd not regretted it. But this is too huge a leap for me now. I have my own issues, my own barrier to overcome. Babysteps instead of leaping. How do one run before learning how to walk... Human beings are so selfish and greedy. I'm only human. Holding back the tears which threatens to flow. Thinking of all the different possibilities and opportunities but it isn't fair. You ain't some boytoy, i miss you. Will we ever gonna feel the same?- Calvin Harris