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I need some real rest, am looking forward for Friday. A good rest day for my worn-out body, my stress-out mind. Toodles, there's a 8am lecture in the morning.

Many things happened in four days. I guess I'm not affected by things now. Things are pretty quiet now, maybe it's getting boring with no new topic to say. I'm proud of myself yet again because I'm not one who will keep quiet about such things. I hope others who are in the same situation will keep their cool and think things through. Goodluck Dage :) I've been re-watching Boys-Over-Flowers. It's drama but I believe girls wouldn't mind taking a little walk into the fantasy life of the main characters and cry their hearts out. Sometimes we just need to destress. When we sympathized, we then learn to cherish what we have now in the present moment. It's important, very very :) Also the school pool has been temporary closed due to the horrible water condition - the water is flithy green. Yucks I know but it's getting worse as day passes and the visibility is only 1m I guess. Even swimming in Sentosa water feels better than that of the pool. And I received...

Courtesy, long lost in Singaporeans' culture. I met a nice cabbie today. He was going for the wrong turn and I stopped him, so as he was reversing he caused the car behind to stop. And he kept apologizing by raising his hand (hopefully you get the idea) and ensuring that driver in the other car sees it. So nice of him! I guess all these basic courtesy are not being tossed away in this quick-pace urban life. The world is changing, but not for the better. :( I'm lacking sleep, rushing assignments and assessments are round the corners. Sleep is very important for atheletes. I'm not so much of a athelete but at least a sports person. So I'm affected by my lack of rest today during training but I need to push myself. Pleased with myself so far, please do not stop Cherlyn. M.I.N.D.S.E.T. Y O U C A N D O I T! :D

The ironic feeling, the clashes of emotions in you. Sometimes you just wanna break down, cry it all out, not because you are sad, but because you will feel better after that. I just wanna leave this place, to somewhere far far away where nobody knows me. I will start afresh, leading a new life. I wanna throw everything I have now away to be burden-free, to be able to not care at all. I wanna stay happy, that's all. Why is it so hard to achieve something so simple? Rants aside, I had a fairly good day :) Training was superb, it's great to see attendance. This shows that people still cares. And for me, I wish for myself to swim like today for each and every trainings to come. Expectations, I hate to let people down. But opps I did it again. Unknowingly. I'm sorry. Is this betrayal?

Strawberry, nice and sweet-looking, but put a little pressure on them, they'll get squashed. Humans-alike, put a little stress and they will break. There's a possibilty that everything would crumple to nothing if fate wants to be cruel but they're being nice for now, thank the gods. I'm a whimp, I'm afraid and I do not trust. There's nothing much to look forward to when you know that things can be unpredictable. Fear is inevitable no doubt. I'm not feeling any better when I open my eyes today, in fact I feel terrible.

Stay strong cause you know you're worth it. I hope today will be a good day. Bless me :)

Well if anyone actually realise, competition is excatly a month away. Feeling somewhat demoralized, it's been three years and these are my accomplishments-nothing. Where's the fault at? Mindset, mindset. Thanks Jialong, you've been a great buddy even though we're not as close as before, I'm still grateful that you're here. We all make choices in life and sometimes I wonder whether have I been making the right choices or are all my decision a mistakes and I'd just have to live with those regrets. Living in this dramatic life, I'd rather die. But sadly this is life, not the way I want it but I don't have a say to it. Thank you for making me grow, thank you for making me more mature, thank you for clearing up my mind. and opening my eyes to see the real world outside. Wow, human beings are so complicated. Came across this phrase at some blog, "Self praise is a international disgrace." So true, no? This is insecurity, attention-deficit. I don...

I hope everything would turn out fine. I guess this is life, you get to meet all sorts of people. It's like Gossip Girls in reality, just much much worse. I need to destress. Maybe some shows will do me good, have been missing out on Family Outing. Later shall train my woes away. Ciaozxz~

I just wanna sleep and forget everything that had happened today. What is the cause of all these and what good do people actually gain? Seriously I have no idea. I do not know and I do not want to know. Just the thought of it digust me deep down into my bones and yes I feel ashame - ashame of those involved, ashame of myself. Come to think of it, I don't blame anyone, we are all human being and we all talk shit. No point getting so worked up on such matters and adopt some child acts. If winning this whole issue is what makes you happy, fine go ahead, we'll keep our mouth shut, I'll keep my mouth shut. Cause the whole world will know who's the one talking the real shit out there. My eyes are all dried up from swimming wth contacts again, now staring at the screen is blinding. I've found my article to critic on (thankgoodness!) and I'm almost done with wednesday's slides. It's good job done, so let me assume that people do work better under stress. :) Alr...

There's so many things I wanna work on now. But sadly, I'm now way behind schedule for my projs. I'm fickleminded, who isn't but yeah I'm back here for now, who knows when I will decide to shift again. (tsk!) Ankles have been hurting thanks to fin trainings with Sepak, and my feet has wounds all over :( Silver Havianas broke and I've replaced it with Light purple (lilac), it's hard to match my clothes thou but it's pretty so no big. I still get pretty worked up whenever a particular someone decides to be active on fb. It stinks to be so affected by people around, those whom you care and those whom you wish you wouldn't care more but you just can't leave them alone. Pfft!