Bricks.

I have 599days left till the contract ends. No I do not hate my job, I just hate the sponsorship. And I would soon be a confirmed staff nurse, working alone. It's just me against the world, I guess. Whutdaheck. 

I've been back training with WaterSapiens recently and realized how de-conditioned I am. NUS is only only 4months away and Nationals 6months, it's my last chance to qualify for Team Singapore and I know I can, I'd just missed it by that bit two years back. It's now or never, make or break. 

I should be sleeping by now, gotta work tomorrow. And words of encouragement from people keeps me going. Thank you for believing in me, I will not allow myself to disappoint anyone. 

Gdnights
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