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AshleyYeoShiMin (: CherlynTeoZiYi (: It was supposed to be team dinner yesterday and yes Jolene said it in her Livejournal, the usual 6 who attend trainings regularly turned up. (fs,elwin,nigel,weilun,jolene&me) Jieying couldn't make it last min. So we had Billy Bombers at The Cathay. Had a great time during dinner with all the lame jokes and dirty talks, and yeah, we're going back to become gamers soon. HAHA! Walked around and went home after that, was feeling lethargic so didn't really hangout and chilled at Starbucks with them. Woke up today with blocked nose, sore throat, splitting headache and fever. That explains the feeling of lethargic during the dinner. So I didn't went tanning with the girls today. Sorry! Was tossing and turning in bed yesterday, didn't really catch any sleep. Arena Warehouse with Elgin just now, and everything was literally out of stock, didn't managed to get anything for Jialong, the only size 30 trunks left was pink, but nevermi...

I remembered the times when you got moody and how I managed to put a smile on your face by saying something retarded or making a fool out of myself. I really wonder how I did that, cause now, no matter how hard I try, the smile I longed for doesn't seemed to appear.

Back from school and training. I'm having Skills test next Wednesday and I've finally done something useful during skills lab just now. I was lying on the bed, as if everyone around is invisible and makes notes for myself. I took notes and answers just now when the lecturer was givings answers too. I want As for all my Assessments, Presentations and Papers. Swam with Ashley just now and we soaked water for most of the time, had some heart-to-heart talks. Did some catching up with Jolene too. Training was okay, did some real swimming today finally. Sometimes the words you mentioned just hurts so much, yet I'm still forcing a smile on my face. Is it really the words or is it just me? You promised me everything I want and now I want to turn back time, can you please fulfill my wish? Fairygod Boyfriend?

Hello everyone-who-reads-my-blog. I'm back from swim trainings and yes again I'm going to update you about what the crazy UncleLouis made us all do and one thing's for sure, everyone who attended training are going to suffer severe muscleaches tomorrow. We did some DYNAMIC sit-ups again with pushups, the sit-up dynamic to the degree in which we are required to sit on the edge of the plunging board, with someone supporting your leg, lie back into the air and sit sets of situps on his timings. (Head facing the pool, So when incline, only your ass and legs are on the plunging board) We did that on monday too, so no big. After that was the grand finale of static hold. Everyone was trembling and shaking like nobody's business and cheating whatever we get the chance. Did a 800m swim and 500m freestyle kick. Was thinking to slack with the girls when Andy shouted my name and said that I'm playing for Blue. Yea, my first ever WaterPolo game after 3 months? I literally drowne...

I'm using drastic measures Just to look skinny and slim! I'm in lecture hall now and supposed to be paying attention to Biology lecture on Respiratory System. I've a piece of assignment undone and it's due at 4pm later on and I'm done with HS1089 slides. I skipped school on tuesday due to the fact that i woke up only at 1.30pm, waking up to see 40 plus missed calls on my phone's screen. I spent the day lazing at home until the kuku boy came. Well, things got settled and went to nap for about an hour and went for movie. I didn't go to school, so I didn't self-train and swim. :( Lab Sessions yesterday was super crappy. It was a cam-whore session again. Took tonnes of pictures and we totally wasted the 2 hours of practice session. Went to AMKhub with Shimin after that, was supposed to hunt for presents but we went to lepak and jalan around. Saw this super cute ring case and it would be super duper sweet if some guy ever present his girl with it. Went back t...

Ever wonder why I'm icedxc? Ever wonder why my IGN in games all have icedx? iced- Freeze your nerve endings, Numb your feelings. x is a divider. c- Cherlyn. I hope you get what I'm trying to say. I'm so sorry if I'd hurt you with what I said. It's a test and I failed terribly. It's all on you now. Please.

I'm surprised by my discipline and motivation this afternoon. Work starts at 5 and I reached the pool at 3 plus. Started my self-trainings and I'd actually swam 2km in total, with sets of 100m with timings. I want my timings to drop and drop and drop and drop! HAHAHA! On shift with fs today. Crapped till swim training starts and today was PT session again. Well I joined in and literally got killed. Dynamic Sit-ups, really DYNAMIC, the pattern more than badminton. Wtf. Thanks ah UncleLouis, tomorrow sure cramp like one kuku. New target set, time limit is 1month. I can do it! :) I want back my tann!!! Tanning sessions anyone? I miss everything in the past, last month to be excat. At least things were more smooth-sailing and I'm a happier person for obvious reasons (if you'd been following my lj closely) Thanks to certain people who really made my life better during these few weeks. You know who you are, no point mentioning names, in case I missed out some. Sometimes I do ...

What are your priorities? Making empty promises all the time and yet expect me to open up? The little million pieces are again shattered into more tiny pieces right infront of you and you never seemed to realise what's going on. No doubt drifting apart and I wake up in the morning, hoping that my day would be complete with your smiles and laughters. As days pass, I realized how different we are and maybe I will wake up one day not feeling anything for you anymore. Because the million pieces don't feel anymore, numbed and maybe by then, I would be free. Sometimes I wish I had not agreed DaGe & Andy, lets meet up this weekend and chill. Can we linger thoughout the night like the other time, but this time, I hope to have some alcohol and of course don't forget your cigs.

WHAT THE FUCK ?!?!?! Like that also can. Nabei Anyways I miss Fly trainings. I miss the way UncleLouis screams at me. I miss the killer sets he give. I miss the way he made us swim till we're breathless. I miss the chlorine water. I miss the language he use to scold the guys. I miss training with the girls. I miss handling with Superstar! I miss the polo games. I miss everything about monday&thursday trainings. :(

Went for the gathering just now, it's fun to hang around and spend time with my family, especially my cousins. Well all the guys are now in Sec school at least (except one) while the girls are all in primary or younger (except one). So I had to carry one around and I'm like the ride for the day. When I put her down she just cling onto my fat legs and keep "jiejie please" me. Super cute! So I changed to piggyback instead, my arms were breaking then. Haha. I gave the card game and mahjong a miss this time, well I'll be back for the next round! I'm always there when there's any chance of gambling. Birthday boy's growing up! :D And baby cousin was fascinated by my phone, and she played with it just because she saw me texting Baby, the lights, the screen changing and the alphabets that appear and disappear, super cute. Didn't managed to take much pictures though. Baby Cousin! She loves my phone. Thanks to JiaLong, I realised something finally. Well, it...

my mode of transport during lab sessions Gave Psyc a miss, was freaking late for an hour. Had breakfast at North with Baby, and went for lab session. Got assessed for medications and god I realised how much attention have I been paying for the past lab sessions. And I'm so glad that I volunteered yesterday, at least now I know my mistakes and learned something finally. Orchard after school with Baby. Wanted to catch a movie and we combed all the cinemas in Orchard. I swear never once in my life had I walked so fast at Orchard, normally I would be strolling with a gang of girls carrying bags of shopping items. Walked to PS and then to Cathay and back to Cine. After movie was Taka and Far East. Bloody hell. We saw someone I dread to see, now everything is going to be exposed. Gawdddddddd! Lifesaving lessons later, am so looking forward to it. It's always fun to hangout with those you've known for years, swim joke train and sweat together.

I'm done with my entry for the day and wasn't intending to do another one. I sort of dislike double entries but I've had enough. I'm doing this entry in response to someone's recent entry. Wondering whose? Approach me and I'll tell. I'm good at words, oh yes I am. So I tell you, in this game, you lose. Apparently someone has been condemning Baby as if the everything in the world is free. Please take a good long look into the mirror. And try to see your inner self, is it appealing or is it as hideous as your appearance? Why not think about what you've done to turn the relationship sour? I admit that he might not be the perfect guy every girl wants, but there's no doubt that he can be one of the sweetest and the most caring guy every girl longed for. I know he treats everyone of his past the same and to you, definitely he loved you and is loyal to you. About the friendster comment, too bad, you can't blame him, I'm the one who commented. And fo...

Today's pretty normal. School's normal, ICA's normal, Work's normal. Finished a book within 2 hours, "A child called It". Yes you might have heard it before, a book on child abuse. I'm now on the continuation, "A man named Dave". Well School's library doesn't seemed to have "A lost child". But it's okay. I'll hunt for it somewhere esle to satisfy my craving for the story. Once I start, I can't stop. Family gathering with Mummy's side on Sat! It's been like almost a year since I've met them. Am I really that busy? Spending money money money tomorrow. Finally some time with Baby, other than train rides to school and from school -.- Good Good Good. FINALLY !

Alot of things happened recently, recently as in the past 2 months. The feelings that I've experienced was extraordinary, the emotions were overwhelming. And yes, I daresay I've learnt a great deal during these few months and yes, there are alot of aspects to life and it does not revolves around one particular object/event only. We give & take, at the same time we gain & lose. Losing something/someone is undoubtly inevitable but whenever we lose something, do not dwell on it. Instead, look around you and aprreciate what is left. Do not wait until something else is gone missing and then you start cursing & swearing, it's of no use. To JoleneWong, Hey love. Life's a bitch. I know it hurts so much but he is definitely not worth your tears. He is losing something special - you. Please don't think about this matter anymore. You still have your great friends and teammates here by your side. At least I will always be your listening ear. Cheer up love :)

Biology mugging isn't going that well, tried out Online Quiz and I failed terribly. Self-reflecting in progress. What the hell am I doing for this past 1 month? I have the answers alright, I've been either skipping school or dozing off in lectures. Great job girl! Yeah and now I've to pay the price, behold the pathetic grades and welcome them in open arms. And if you people think that I will really welcome those imcoming "F's without even giving a fight, you so do not know this girl behind the screen here. You lit it with a torch and now it's burning wild. Self-Motivation coming up, Not suitable for unmotivated personnels. G O , C H E R L Y N ! G O , C H E R L Y N ! G O , C H E R L Y N ! Youcandoit!

Discipline is the key to success. (Those who agree to this can raise up your hand and say I) I used to had that discipline in me, but I think I lost a few months back. Now I cannot get my lazy ass out of bed in the morning, cannot stay awake during lessons and of course, money wise I've been spending and not saving a single shit in my bank. Thus I've been missing morning class or worst, the whole day's lesson and only to go school for trainings. Bed eh? Seriously wondering what will I become if I got in a JC instead of a Poly, at least I would attend school regularly. Okay regrets aside, I'm giving swim training a miss later, I'm aching like mad and of course my skin is now in my favourite colour and my face is flushed as though I just saw 100 Justin Timberlake appear infront of me. My kuku brother bought WarCraft disc and is installing it in the desktop now so this means I'm going to install it in my lappy too. :D But he bought in for a fucking 65 bucks. It cou...

Sentosa with Lifeguards today. And yes the sun was so high up and now I have shades mark on my face. I guess my turn would come soon, cause fs realised that I hadn't been buried by them before. God! Carls Jr for lunch, walked around Vivo and had Ben & Jerry's. It's been such a long time since we had so much fun together. :) Somehow I feel guilty. I wished I didn't have so much commitment. Now this feeling sucks. ICAs are round the corners and I need to focus. This sem's GPA had better be good. I need to train to maintain my current speed and of cause improve on my timings. Yesterday's 50m was fucking slow I swear. The other time I trained daily for my timing to decrease 6 secs in 2 months. I would hit my target if I continue my trainings like before. I need to work too, seriously I can't be living off my mummy and asking her for cash for my own stuff. It's been like 2 months since I last went on a real shopping trip. And yes I need to save up serious...

Baby Teo & her MooMoo boyfriend and yes, she has fat legs since she's a baby -.- Week 5 of School just ended. I'm done with CFC presentation. Psychology ICA Outline due next Tueday. PNPE ICA slides due next Tuesday too. Biology ICA next Wednesday. Lab theory and Prac test both on Week 8. So is elective's ICA. Freaking screwed. And yeap I'm looking forward to the short breaks in Week 10&11. Christmas is coming and so is New Year & Chinese New Year. There is going to be so much happening in December so I need to save up now! Yes I can almost name everything out now (Monthsary, WSC Camp, LG Chalet/BBQ, Christmas, Birthdays, New Year's Eve, Shopping Spree for Year End Sales!) Yep, I'm so looking forward for warehouse sales! :D Lifesaving lessons were so much fun just now, from warm-up to doing the events and changing victims for me and I passed towing Solomon and yes I broke my PW(PersonalWorstRecord) when Jerald was my victim and he is only sub 50kg, bl...

My Life :) Lifeguards&Swimteam/Polo&LifeSaving&NR0827 Ahh yes, they are my love now. Yes I have regrets. Really regretted abandoning my studies last sem for competitions, resulting in such a lousy GPA. But nevertheless I'm back for full time trainings now and rest assure that I will not neglect my studies anymore. Group meeting early in the morning, lab lesson for an hour or two and here I am outside the CCA rooms, wasting my time away.

take my hand baby and carry on this dance with me Woke up aching due to gym training yesterday. When school for lab lessons and went for training. 500m warm-up, 1km of butterfly kick and reverse butterfly kick, 10x50m butterfly sprints, 100m warm-down. Had dinner with Melody and Jiamin with the polo guys. Baby came to fetch me home again! :D Blessed really! I want to lose weight. I want to stop biting. I want to eat lesser. I want the zits to clear. I want back my comp suit tann. I want longer fringe. I want to swim faster. I want to run and jog. I want to lose muscle-mass. I want a new camera. I want a new phone. I want a competition suit. I want a backpack. I want a red specs. I want a red nike bottle. I want blue and red highlights. I want to attend school punctually and regularly. I want to be more sensitive to people around me. I want to have closer relationship with my classmates. I want to have more friends whom I can truely trust. I want back some friendship which I really t...

ASHLEY & LIPING ! Woke up late and skipped morning lecture as usual. Baby fetched me to school and we had breakfast at North. And I think someone had fallen in love with BOMB. It's prata with sugar and butter, thus it's sweet and smells damn nice. And obviously it taste great too. Had Presentation, guess eveything went smoothly and had lab lessons. Chilled with Ashley at Library's Cafe till 1630 and went to wait for training to start. I studied Biology! ICA next week! Training started and we did gym, funny stuff happened there, and we wanted to swim but there was lightning -.- went into the water at 2030 and swam for awhile. Met Baby at MRT and he send me home like he did for the past 2 mths. :D I'm currently trying my very best. Yes and I will continue to put in faith and trust. Seeing you sad really makes me unhappy as well. There are loads of things I'm unable to express using words. Far too complicated and sophisticated to use alphabets to describe, it would...

You make me smile even after all these. Baby makes everything alright. I chose to believe him in the end, yes I did. I had to isn't it? Quarrels and Conflicts only make us realise how important we are to each other. And we only make sure that non of these will happen again. As days pass by, we've grown closer and our love have grown stronger. Thanks Baby. :D

Am I overreacting to this? Please tell me people. I'm really suffering inside. I can't talk to Baby normally anymore. I can't face him the way I used to anymore. I can't believe a single thing he say anymore. Yes, I do have an issue with the word "forever". I don't use forever, because I know all good things comes to an end. So why gave your word when you can't fulfill it? Why promise when no effort is being put in? Why take people for granted? WHY? I have loads to tell you, but I can't really bring myself to tell you. Hurtful I guess, I'm a straightforward person. But to you, I cannot even beat around the bush, I don't want to hurt you. Hurting you is just like hurting myself. The tears still flow, the heart still aches, the mind still thinks. Well, some things are better left unsaid. Really. You don't visit my blog, but if you ever get to see this, I apologize. Baby... You made some promises. You gave someone your word. Now the time h...

Seriously it feels so good to be soaking in the chlorine water of NYP pool again. The feeling is just simply great. Really, can any swimming pool be more refreshing than our homeground? School was alright today. 2 hours of CFC lecture was nothing more than heart-to-heart talks with Liping Boyf & Ashley! I know I'm pretty noisy in the lecture hall but I cant really contain my "excitment" about recent events, I had to let it out! Yes, 1 hour break was up at library's cafe. Bitching about life, people and of cause, we did some real insulting. I might seemed evil now, but nope, after you know the full story(which you will not), you will realise how nice I am. Too much I tell you. Yes, went for elective like finally and guess what, IT WAS FUN! So ended the 3 hour lecture, went to the pool to wait for training to start. And yes, Jolene Wong came and she updated me with some stuff. Yes, I've been missing out loads of stuff during my this month of disappearance from t...

I was thinking about good old school days and I suddenly thought of the group of 20 plus people who stayed back with me every friday after school. We endured standing in the hot sun, endured the pumping postitions on the pebbled road in midday and of course all the changing parades, hell PT sessions and screams from the Inspectors. NCO 06/07 Yes, they're simply the best. It's really one for all and all for one. So me and Terence decided to have a gathering this coming weekend! East Coast Park and Dinner after that! Sweet! Finally after one whole year. And yes, why should I be bothered by what others say? It's their thoughts and their feelings. It's their mouth and their hands. I know I'm so much better than that person. Thanks Da Ge and Jolene. What both of you said really made me feel better. THANKS BABY! I HAVE FAITH IN YOU AND MYSELF. LOVEYOULOVEYOULOVEYOU!

SHE got me mad. and HE better find ways to cheer me up. because Cherlyn is not a nice girl when she gets angry. Plus the fact that her already shattered heart is being shattered once again. She is fucking angry now. This period of the month somemore. I WANT TO KILL HER. BITCH. details on my Lj.

Fate toys, Reality hurts. Why promise when you can't fulfill it? Why try your best and your best is not doing anything? When you broke the promise, it's not only a promise broken. You had something else broken too, a heart, is now shattered into million little pieces. would you kindly pick those pieces up and put the back in place? you said something and I took it to heart It's hard to trust now. I just don't know how to trust anyhow. When people nowadays have all mastered the "Art of Pretence", it's hard work guessing who's being real to you. Trial and Error, and whoops, you got the "Error" and yes, you got the worst verbal abuse ever. It wasn't that bad actually, the fact is that it is actually something someone just said, but it coming out from not just anyone else's mouth but your good friend's made everything hell. We have the Pretenders, the Backstabbers, The Liars, blahblah. So now do your labelling people. They are all aro...

Ashley! - Finally, I got my lazy ass out of my bed and went to school today. And guess what, I was early today! I think I've been late for morning lessons for 6 months. Nope, I was never early. NEVER! Well, It's sort of a miracle, I tapped my card at 8.57am! :D I still got time to walk to Macs and get myself a cup of Milo to help me survive through 2 hours of Psyc lectures. Lecture ended early and went to North to have early lunch. Lab session today was freaking easy I swear. Bandaging, learned it so many times before till I lost count already. I hope Susan Loh had a good impression of me now. I've been skipping her lab lessons and now I have tonnes of make-up sessions with her. Monday's doomsday! Lab ended early and a few out us lingered outside lab and slacked. Cam-whored and went to meet Baby. Was intending to go for training just now, but decided to give it a miss due to heavy flow and the fact that I'm still sneezing and dry coughing. If anyone wants to kill me...

take me to a place, where I truly belong I woke up today with yet another terrible headache, this time accompanied with total blocked nose. I'm officially labelled "SICKED". And so, I'm still not spared from the cramps. They're annoying. So I decided to give school a miss and slept in late. The weather's gave me the snooze thingy and urge me to continue sleeping. Woke up feeling better, nose blocked became partial and I started sneezing again. And guess what, I'm not the sick-est person yet. Baby came and I crowned him the sickest person. Haha. So both of us are sick. Great! Sleeping now! Long day tomorrow. 9am to 6pm and working till 9pm! 12 hours in NYP! I'm still contemplating. No worries to Liping and Ashley, you guys will never be forgotten. loves.

*Screams HELP!* I'm sneezing like a C.O.C.K now! So totally no advanced warnings given. And I'm getting blocked-nose and bad breathes! Hahaha! So everyone, stay away from me! Training tomorrow! D-E-A-D! Cause I'm not in a very good state for training, the sneezing and the blood that runs non-stop. How can you guys imagine me to survive land training tomorrow? I hope I don't collaspe. If I do, please don't resuscitate me. please DON'T! HE'S COMING OVER NOW! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

tears behind those smiles My monday blues are so over now, and guess what, I'm in such good mood, I screamed in SIT toilet now. And I just wonder, why can't SHS install air-con inside the toilets like SIT and SEG? It's definitely more comfortable for PU and BO. Okays toilets aside. Went to school and looked for Mdm Chye and she's in! like finally. Had a little chat on courses and choices. Ah yes, Id and Superego giving little miss Ego a hard time inside. Baby objects the idea but still he respect my choice and will support me. People are against the idea. Yes I will give this a long good thought before making any decisions. Lunch at South Canteen and saw Little-Red-Haired-Lesy buying chicky nuggets. Went to SIT toilet and I'm so delighted! Some personal stuff though, and nope, you are not allowed to know the details. Had lectures and school ended an hour early. Came home and slacked. I've got homework and projects to do! And I do not know when is my upcoming ICA...

i smile because you smiled The kind of monday blues I get are darn freaking serious. It's like 3 in the afternoon and I'm enjoying myself with some self-mixed Martell with Coke (couldnt get any tiger or I will be downing Submarine instead). Mummy's Martell and My coke that is. Well she won't kill me, she never will. For obvious reasons - I'm her only girl. Ridiculous isn't it? I know. I sound like some spoilt bitch. Thats what he said, I'm spoilt. Nevermind! People say I think too much. I think about the relevant stuff and I think more about the irrelevant ones. Yesterday after the usual phone chat with baby, I did not go to sleep. Thoughts races through my pea-brain and I just had a sudden breakdown. Tears filled my eyes and I permitted them to flow down my cheeks and flood my pillow wet. Woke up with puffy eyes as usual, missed call some kuku for like a dozen times and he again failed me. Nevertheless I went to school, not for lectures but to see my ment...

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