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Jay Park's Fanmeet on Saturday, 25Sep2010 @ Wavehouse, Sentosa. IT WAS AWESOME! SO AWESOME I COULD TYPE OUT THISE WHOLE ENTRY IN CAPS! (okay to spare your eyes) It was my first ever fanmeet, it's the first time I'm so crazy over a singer but he's not just any singer, he's Jay Park! And moreover, he looks like my eye-candy! Sigh who is sadly serving the nation now & no chance to see him ever since he left school. Okay back to topic, the whole event starts at 7pm and being kiasu Singaporeans, me and Lips reached at 4pm and guess what, the queue was unbelievable. But thank goodness as time passes we realised that we were in the front-middle of the queue. And since it was a free-standing event, it was so worth my time. When we reached the event venue (inside wavehouse itself), me and Lips were disappointed. The layout wasn't what they promised on the website and there's small area followed by a shallow pool. We being crazy fans ended up in the pool and more ...

I wanna go for clinicals so badly & people just keep complaining about dreading to go to work and stuff like that. I would do anything to trade for their shifts and I really wanna do this module badly. It's the same old- You don't know how to treasure it until you've lost it. It's a blessing that they're doing their posting now or rather, it's karma biting back on me. This is just what I deserve for being such a slacker. Well I've been quite busy for the past few days, going out with the girls and the guy and I guess spending many vitamin Ms. :( Thursday was photoshoot with Que & Lips and I sort of regretted doing it. Although it was quite an experience but seriously I hate being a "barbie doll" with the make up and hairdo and people telling you how to pose for pictures. It feels so unnatural, so not "Cherlyn". Totally. Urghhhh this is so not going to happen again, never. Modelling is so plastic, especially when the model does not...

Happy birthday my girl! Finally nineteen like the rest of us and I hope you will enjoy your special day (without any doubt you will), even though you would and will be spending most of your day in the hospital. Well here's something for you. (Be prepared for words babe.) The first day I met you, I couldn't really remember but I'm sure everyone remembered me on tthe first day of school, I was a joke. But I do remember us going for swim trials together and you were scared off (until today!) and then *fast forward-x10* you went into lifesaving field (am really glad you did!) and us training together after school. Really missed the time when we're still having school, you calling me while I'm walking in from yck mrt station telling me you just woke up and asking for an emergency attendance taking (I memorised your admin number so you owe me for the attendance thingy for basically the whole of year 3's academic year), Yong Tau Foo with fruit juice at North Canteen fo...

2ne1- Go Away.

Many things happened and yes the last competition of the year is now over and that's something to celebrate about. WSpians did well in this year's Open Water bringing home loads of medals and plenty of smiles. All the aches we're experiencing now are all worth it. Bring it on next year and we'll show them who's boss yeah. I did pretty average compared to the rest, with only 3 events I did not expect anything. Beach has always been my weakest and until today it still is. So I'm just gonna train harder, that's always next year. Well despite the good performance in Sentosa, I'm not really in celebratory mood. I'm moody, or rather depressed. I could not really find the reason to this sudden emotional turmoil but it's killing me inside. And I don't think things are all going smoothly for me, nothing ever did and yes I cry to sleep so what, everyone cries right and I love to cry, it's the only way to let everything out. I don't wanna talk t...

Mood is low today, guess I woke up on the wrong side of bed. I skipped training, spent the whole day rotting and munching on food and alot of the time thinking. About nonsense again. Shit crap this is getting on my nerves. Today is so freaking bad. I swear I can kill myself just living through today.

Had the last beach training on Sunday and it was seriously tiring, I did my events over and over again till I couldn't feel my arms, probably also due to the aches I'm suffering from after Splashdown the day before. Training was tough but it was just plain tiring. Last competition of the season is only 3 days away but I'm not feeling the jitters still. Something is seriously wrong with me. Sigh. Also had movie half-marathon these two days. (Cause I did watched a couple of them, but not long enough I guess! HAHA!) And last night was impromtu volleyball at Sentosa with G, Nick & Jeremy! Halfway through the game, two drunk columbia girls walked past and we tried to help them. And hell one tried to get touchy with me. Freaking hell, seriously do I freaking look like a fraking lesbian?! The details just freaks me out urghhhhhh, freaking disgusted by it! Tomorrow's last training and I should totally make good use of it. My goal just is ahead, just need to put in the last ...

Life for me is like a roller coaster ride, it kepts fluctuating up and down and sometimes I get real bipolar(ish). But come to think of it again, I myself made my life so screwed, no one else did. Even if someone really did, how screwed can it be compared to myself screwing up my own life. And the pretend that one has to put up to make things work sometimes is fustrating but no matter, cause putting up a fake front is necessary to avoid all the squabbles which are so un-called for. And to make choices which will make yourself happy is selfish. It's not hard but sometimes it's for the greater good that we made outselves suffer. All for the greater good. I am who I am today because of the choices I made yesterday. - Eleanor Roosevelt And yes, the choices I made in the past made me who I am today and note, I do regret some of them (like how freaking fat am I now, why did I stop swimming, why didnt I stopped nursing when I had the chance). For the last point, I really do regret, de...

Friday was Flea Escape with WSapien girls at *Scape! Four of us shared a store and it was a long 7hours all the way till 9pm! I'm very sure all of us were satisfied with our loots that day. Cheap thrills seriously! :D Despite the crampiness and humid/stuffness/very noisy environment we all were great salesgirls (esp the lelong $5 part!) Hehe! Also thank you Xy's boyf for bringing us Koi from Bishan, it was awesome ttm! Okay so I've gotten a bag at $10 (but it was sort of a instant regret seriously -.-), a belt at $10 and a dress at $5 (thanks for xy for buying 2 tops and got discount!). Had to give my cousin's chalet a missed due to flea then rushed home to put my leftover stuff (which is ALOT) then rushed over to Tampines. I was abandoned in Singapore and I spent (most of) the day at NUS pool with Team WSapiens. The sun was scorching and despite the huge amount of Sunplay SPF 130 slapped on my back, I still got burnt. How badly, I would not know till later won't I?...

Why do you cry? Mine is due to heartbreaking issues.

I'm not someone who can do things alone, I'd rather be in a big group of wild, crazy people than to be eating lunch myself. Like AYSM, I'm rather dependent on friends. And being alone kind of means hell for me, not having people to talk to, text with. 48 hours is going to pass so darn slowly. It's going to be very quiet for the next few days, at least until Saturday. People are all going over to Malaysia over the long weekends and me, stuck here like a pathetic little ------ (wanted to type kitten but it sounds disgusting to be using it on me). I've kind of made plans for the next two days already, but still I feel very alone. Is it really just me cause I get this feeling of abandonment? Bahhhh whatever man seriously. If all goes well, it's flea market store at Scape with WS girls, then training at night. Sat morning will be Splashdown at NUS and then meet Jas at night for dinner. Hopefully time will pass fast enough. :) And yesterday I had a piece of awesome ne...

Mahjong yesterday was (teeheehee) superb cause I won money! And I nearly did a XIAO-SAN-YUAN! Woots but also ended up winning $$ from that round. Should have taken a picture of my tiles, was darn lucky to get that kind of hand. If you know nuts mahjong, then ignore the above. Cause I'm quite confused about it also, I only know how to pong, chi, game and collect money hehehe! And I didn't update on my weekends, so this is what I did. Saturday was party over at Aaron's Crib! To Aaron: I TELL YOU I LOVE YOUR PLACE! The roof is awesome! :D And it was alot of eating, surprises (I hope they were successful), urmz cam-whoring and oh ya, dance battling. Party success! And from looking at the pictures, I must say the lightsticks played an important role that night! Okay then watched movie and after that knocked out till noon the next day. And had prata at Casuarina! :) And mugged all my Sunday away. Caught "Vampire Sucks" just now at E!Hub and it was really -.- to the max....

The last paper was indeed quite demoralising. Well my attitude was the one which should be blamed but nonetheless the paper was pretty sucky. Its okay for MCQs to be tricky but seriously I rather do 3 SAQ than 70MCQ, makes my eyes go @.@ totally. And couldn't they set a better question? Urmz it's like the answer could be this and that (not OR) and we are right darn confident about the correct answer. In the end, the clever Ms TLP wrote "type 2-3 hypovolaemic shock". Dead clever she was but still, what done is done, we can't change anything now too. Sigh. Was at Ikea with Youseeme, MrTan and BruiseLor after the paper and was enjoying the meatballs! :) then we got onto a cab with a road-idiot (translate to chinese) cabbie who doesn't know the way to Tampines from Tampine Ikea. -.- And Mr Bruise was so confident of the way back that he gave directions till we ended up at near Hougang! Bahhhhh~ Gonna post this on fb too! Okay shall go back to mahjong naoooo~ Win m...

Half-dead. It's been a long while since I've felt this way really. There was no ending to the sadness, it's flooding inside me, drowning me in those sad thoughts. Then I found myself walking aimlessly and just wanting to waste time away, with tears flowing again. I've said something I shouldn't, didn't something I shouldn't, acted like I shouldn't. The couple that fights the most is the one most in love. it shows they care enough to notice the other one screwed up & care to fix it. Are we really.

Firstly, thank you everyone who attended my birthday chalet. It was a blast no doubt and hope you guys enjoyed yourself too. Chalet was fun with many many ups and a few downs! Hah but everything went smoothly and I'm glad I had this chalet, my last celebration of 'teenage-hood' was great! I had too much fun during chalet and got hangover the next day, couldn't sleep and couldn't really study and couldn't do anything. And whiteberry got activated! HEHEHE! :D Next, tomorrow is management paper. One hour with 30 MCQs & 2 choose 1 SAQ (50%). Wasted my time really. Now I'm left with e-lectures which is in my whiteberry now. Gonna read them up later. Suddenly got mind-block. Siao liao if tomorrow mind-block then die. But no matter, would have another module to accompany the existing. :/

It's amazing much how hurt words could bring and physical pain that one can feel reaches a point when nothing could be done to relieve it. You would just want to sit down and stare into blank space. There's no fighting back the tears, more just kept pouring down. This is love. Affected by something so minor, it could be ignored by others but no, I did not choose to bother, my heart did. And people say follow your heart.

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