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One day. This feeling sucks. What's new? I don't know who is here for me now, at least i have someone in the past. Got to suck it up and deal with it. I run away, i always do. And i knew something like that is going to happen. Forewarned. But i took a leap of faith and i'd not regretted it. But this is too huge a leap for me now. I have my own issues, my own barrier to overcome. Babysteps instead of leaping. How do one run before learning how to walk... Human beings are so selfish and greedy. I'm only human. Holding back the tears which threatens to flow. Thinking of all the different possibilities and opportunities but it isn't fair. You ain't some boytoy, i miss you. Will we ever gonna feel the same?- Calvin Harris

And we were fading to darkness.  Even the sweetest chocolates has its expiry date. I gave it all up. I believe its all for the better good. I've been on the receiving end. I know how it feels. I'm a strong believer of Karma and sure thing, what goes around comes around. I can only sit around and see how karma bitch slap me eventually and what else would be taken away from me. Ever felt like you aren't worth a dime, nothing goes well in your life and you feel so pathetic? Me, now, this. How do you see past one's flaws and love unconditionally? And me, being the very unrealistic perfectionist is far from perfection. And yes I'm not worth. I'm truly sorry. 

Regrets.  We all have regrets.  Thinking back, I would have done a lot more and I would not have chosen this path.  If only I'd chosen otherwise, if only I'd given myself time and a chance to try.  Human, filled with greed, can never be satisfied.  Is it really so hard to be happy?  And I tell myself that I'll be strong. 

Everyone has friends. Some we know since childhood, some more recently. We get to know more people from social network sites. But who are are your true friends? Anyone had an answer for it? To be honest, i can only name a handful. Really glad that i can really call them friends. We meet people for a reason, we might need their help some time in life and they might need ours, some we met them 'by mistake'- an exposure to all kinds of jerks out there. Others we met due to our good doings, angels that are sent in to make your life happier. I have seen plastic characters around me, those two-faces who happily bitch about the other but act like they're best friends . I hope they leave my life for good. And those who only come to me when they need support, you can fuck off as well. Enough of your hot and cold treatment, im just human. You dont know how mucb it hurts. So define friends then take a look around, who are your friends?

\ --- 2012 has its ups and downs but I couldn't ask for a better year.  It's been a year since I'd started working full time and working life is a bitch. I can say I'm doing good and have been given many responsibilities. Few months ago, I was being asked to take on the challenge of being a roster maker, then to championing new system which is being rolled out two months ago, taking part in audits and the latest, preceptorship. Really grateful for the never-ending opportunities my nurse manager offered and yes job satisfaction is there no doubt. I'm no longer counting down to the end of my bond but still, I'M LEFT WITH 10 MORE MONTHS TO GO! HAHAHAHA *GRINS*  Coming February I will be starting school, taking part time degree in SIM. Now that's a challenge. Those who have known me as a student, you will know what I mean. What'