today went to skl... rain rain!!! hahas... got homeroom... take temperature... forget bring thermometer for nigel... sorry leis... nvm la.. 20 cents nia hor... den got physics... got back the structure qns de test... hahas... pass again!!! yea.. den you HEARTLESS la... SI MEI LIAN XIN de.. i cried in class wors... but i tink not much ppl not... cus its those silent tears tt flows down naturally without you blinking your eyes... hais... HATE IT MAN!!! WHY ME LO??? WHY MUST LYK TT LO... yingxuan, qiuxuan, estelle, shishyan, joan, steven, zuojia and hongzhao saw me crying... my god... so many ppl see lo... promised zuojia le... yea... LYN LYN DUN CRY~ tts wad he told me... i WUN cry... den got english vocab test... still not too bad la... den got chemis... fun man!!! den recess... forget go take my photo from mr chia... diaos... tml must go skl earlier... so can take and paste and den give mr chan... lols... for OBS la... den chinese... Shen jian on leave... den nv go lo.. hais.. anyway..
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today so fun... wakakas~ when to skl in mufti... hais.. den went to meet joel and i helped him... maths... i am trying very very hard... but somehow... i got such big problems.. the coordinate geometry... how sia... lols... den i drew his work during social studies when mr nazar was teaching us the source based... i heard it during history le.. den he is just merely repeating... den second period SBQ test... finished it just on time.. den poa... so fun sia... MDM QUEK TRUSTED ME!!! me and andy!!! yea ANDY!!! andy rawks... den recess... i finished his work le... cus see him lyk still left alot.. and tt nids to be handed in on fri... so i tot i faster giv him back so he got more time to do... den ask metiga to pass to him cus i not going down... den stay in class.. tok tok.. den d&t.. actually is at classroom de... den i go say unfair why other ppl can go design center why we cannot... den he go take key and we went to design center... hahas... den mi liting jasmine lirong and farzan
i wan thing to be just like last time... not like this... if it is really true den i have to say SORRY... seriously... not i mean or heartless or wad la... its that... hais... i really dunno how to phrase it la... just dun wanna say it so clear... i am afraid now... i am so afraid now... dunno how to face it... so TERRIBLE!!! my god~ why must this happen to me... why must it be mi... oh my god!!! oh my fucking god!!! mans- CHERLYN TEO SUCKS!!! i just want things back to normal... fancy this happening now.. fancy it happening now at such a critical time.. damn la... why must it be me lo... i just dun get it... exams coming reddi... den like tt... shit man... can't concentrate in class.. maybe my phone sholud rest at home for the next 1 month... until all these STUFFS is settled... i am just so afraid now... i can never rest well at night... always thinking and wondering... i am not blur... acting again... i am not stupid... i am just acting... always acting.... is it a blessing in
officially declaring myself PENNILESS~ its oli monday... i jus got my one week allowance... which is $50 oli... den i spend $25 today... spent on my $20 on new school shoes... den $5 on makan... den i haven top up my exlink yet... there goes my another $10... den still nid go checkup for OBS.. which is bout $25... den money for the veh veh expensive story books is 21 bucks... den my new swimming suit is $75... but i got $50 for my swim suit oli... its short of $15... oh wad the fuck!!! i am low on cash... ahh~~ i wanna claim my money back... the money i bought on shoes... den all my ten year series money... ahh!!! I DUN WANNA BE POOR!!!
boredom is killing me... still not in the mood to study.. dunno why... hais... oli wanna play and play and play... so boring at home... ppl jio me go out but no money... so darn sians... i am dying of BOREDOM!!! can some kind soul out there help me in my maths.. i dun wan joel or chinkeat... joel say everytime say teach teach teach den in the end nv teach... den chinkeat even worse... teach mi all wrong things... he dun even noe his stuffs well... crapps man... HELP HELP HELP!!! i wanna pass my maths... but i lazy to practice la.. hehes!!! help!!! someone talk to me now... i am so BORED!!!
i'm gonna be DEAD soon~ i am so darn tired today... woke up at 11 plus... den use computer.... nth to do so play maple... lols... den maple until 1 plus my bro wanna use... den let him use lo.. den i went up to my room.. dunno do wad... dreaming ba... den i vehveh sian... den i took out liting's social studies text and my notebook and continue writing my notes... den after a while i went for my life saving... today is my life saving mock test!!! so reach there at 4 plus... den wait for ppl to come... cus a lot ppl late... den at bout 5.15 den nathaneal started testing us theory... den at 6 lyk tt den we did practical... did warm up... den towing... den for a while oli la.. i dunno why but i jus lose my touch on straddle jump... dammit... den keep doing still do wrong... i oso dunno how lo... shit man... den finally did once... den naomi pass it... but after tt cannot le.. maybe today is not the day to do straddle jump.. X)) den after tt got briefing on the exams... its next ne
help me!!! wah~~~ sobsob** mi arm and shoulder there so pain!!! wah~ hais... cus wed do marching at HTA... den ytd start to ache a lil... cus the 90 45 thingy... den summore long time nv march.. den ytd napfa... go do the incline... did 18 for myself... 6 for liting... so total did 24!!! wad the hell~ lols... den now so bad lyk hell... damn.. tml still got life saving mock test... die die die... how to swim lyk tt sia??? mock test somemore!!! nvm.. jus have to bear the pain and aching... not the first time le... but my legs not pain or aching at all.. ran for 2.4 so many times reddi.. still not pain... must be swimming... hees!!! X)) morning... i brought 5 plastics bags of newspaper to skl... 4 really BIG bags and 1 small bag... hees... thanks estelle wenloong and gang to help us carry up to class... den liting bring magazine... den after assembly go up class arrange newspaper... den nv bring SW... den after tt is physics... got back the MCQ test we did on monday... erms... 23/45... ju
well well~ today such a tiring day... woke up quite late i supposed... had a veh veh bad dream... MY GOD!!! I DREAMT OF *****... DANG!!! why him sia.. so scary lo... really hope that dreams are virtual... not gonna come to reality... lols... if not i am gonna kill myself... ahhhh~ okays... i woke up cus of tt dream and oso becus liting msg mi... den i saw chin keat msg den faster gave him his morning call.. sorry hor... today so late den wake u up... ytd call u at 6 today 6.20... bleahs... den went to msg my peeps to bring pe attire cus got napfa test!!! yea.. den went to skl wid liting... den go skl morning assembly got one stupid bee... come and lisiao us... den sing national anthem halfway ppl keep moving... lols...laughing oso... den went back class... the homeroom... lame man... COOKIE THIEF... now i noe why all teacher in AVA ytd le... lols... hais... dun GOSSIP... wad to do.. i in 3e2 GOSSIP club leis... wad we do is GOSSIP.. duh.. lols... XP den physics... den when bell ring tt
hatred growing... dunno why but... its all like that... okays... things happened... hmm.. morning... read the very very expensive story book tt i have bought on CREDIT... cus i have not paid yet... wondering why isn't there any INVOICES... lols... okays... i admit i am showing off my POA skills... X)) den got e.maths... cus i still owe mr chia the weekend assignment... so i faster chiong lo... den last 2 qns nv do... den he teach the coordinate geometry... cus he skip this teach chpt 6 first.. not too bad... now... i am starting to do maths betta le... lols... from the congruency... lols... now all do de correct!!! yea... weets~ clap claps... cus i wan to do nicely oso veh rare de... den got 2 period SS... lols... i take broom fight wid hanaffi... fight until outside class... den i take broom he take dustpan... lols... so dirty lo... but nvm... socialising ma... lols... den i anyhow kick him.. lols... self defence... i not innof strength to take on him oso.. den nazar come... i am
hais... damn stressed nowadays... after wad happened ytd... i dunno wad to say bout mi... owas so troubled wid NP stuffs... i totally neglected my studies lo... hais... today... just received my EXAM TIMETABLE... hais.. so colourful worrs... X)) all the stuffs i gotta study and prepare... confirm flunk mid year de la... especially my e.maths... hais... and history and physics... others i am not so worry... hais... i wanna top POA... top my class den top the level le... I WAN IT!!! and I WILL GET IT!!! i wanna top combine science... hmm... maybe top in chemistry can.. hais... but wid physics... my god!!! i wanna top in chinese.. I CAN DO IT DE... CHINESE... PIECE OF CAKE la... xp chinese has owas been my stronger subject... weets~ LOL... hais... NP so many stuffs... i wanna apologise again for all the attitudes tt i have shown u all... SORRY... for the SYF trainings... i noe all of us wanted to be in G.O.H... but sadly... its ur luck on selection day... we
wa... TODAY SO EXCITING WORS... =P today skl not too bad la... hais... chinese i did damn badly lo... nv even hit 50... oli got 43/70.. sians la.. den craps... den got check up for mi... den go assembly... so cute lo the percussions... nice music man... lols... exciting is after skl... after skl walk to westmall actually wan go KFC eat de... den go there no space... saw samantha, jingli and shihui... den saw kaixin jie and huili... den we go mac... saw bryan they all.. den eat halfway got one hillgrove de girl... say felancia... den she go kol 2 other girls.. purple and white i shall kol them... den go toilet come out the purple extra go say kanina kao bei... den felancia buay song den of cus say back la... kao bu la... den they go down den comeup find us trouble... den quarrel and mac... den purple and white so extra lo... den quarrel until mac de manager come up den they go... den we sit a while den we go tot of going westmall to find them... den jec msg jiawei den i kol kaixin jie.
sooooo tired!!! morning wake up so early go life saving.. reach there ready late le... den nv do warm up den do shallow water... den straddle jump in swim head up free style... wa... lyk nv move lyk tt... oh.. is moving... but to mi lyk nv move.. cus veh slow.. den go tow the casualty.... so tired lo... nv do warm up den lyk tt... hais.. den slowly swim betta.... finally got my touch back... my form is back guys... i wanna swim swim swim... den went to KFC makan... jl left early... so oli mi and wilson... hees.. den ask bruno faster come... den wilson pei mi wait until bruno come.. den we tok tok... den bruno came... den wilson go... lols... den wait for junlong... den go queensway make nco tee... den discuss POC... den found out so many things nid to do... lucky got plan a bit... den got more organised... hees... i am so tired now!!!
had fun today... hmm... today woke up at bout 11 plus... so tired from ytd de duty... den woke up use com... den daryl jio mi go play pool at timah... den i veh steady de ma... den go lo... cus rain veh heavy... den he say wan go le den kol mi... de wentlie on my bed and slack... lols... dream and slept a while... den daryl kol mi ask mi go prepare... den go find shirt to pei lo... jeans and black t-back... weets X)) den put on my contacts den make my hair... den met him at interchange wid weijie... den took 67 go bukit timah plaza... hmm den go play pool lo... i won daryl yang 2 times.. hahas... not skills lo.. is actually he hit in the black ball... lols.. den tok wid doreen oso.. hais.. den so funny... keep playing until 7 plus den weijie wanna eat... den went outside the hawker centre there eat dinner... den went to daryl hse... den outside timah plaza de bus stop... saw mr chan... the macho wan... lols... den tok tok... den went up bus... den tok bout skl and stuffs... so funny..
i am so fortunate today... X)) morning still quite normal ba... come to skl... walk behind him... but he dunno... lols... lyk i transparent... tok to jing wei bout POC stuffs... den he sat at the flag there... lols... hmm... den i comfirm going to OUTWARD BOUND SINGAPORE ... weets X)) do you noe how hard it is to get in??? by rite i got no chance de... cus i NPCC ma... den is NYAA push mi up.. yea... and by rite i sec 3 no chance of going de.. but becus of NYAA... mi and florence got in... and we were both actually on waiting list.. so FORTUNATE lo... yea... thnaks mr chan for letting me in... yeah.. X)) den chemistry got second in class... 22/25... weets... ii love chemistry!!! den after tt went to west mall wid jec, felan and liting... we go makan... when walking to westmall... saw him oso... lols... tio lisiao again... den went home make full-u and polish boots... den went to bukit batok cc... for my duty... wa.. duty stand so long... den got lil bit cock up... mr heng keep
i think i am feeling better... cus we finally msged... after a period of 1 whole week... i feel so disgusted... felt tt i betrayed him... but i didnt.. i am so guilty... hais... been doing counselling and giving advices... know lots of things which i shuld not noe... i am trying to solve lots of things rite now... dunno why all these started... but but but... i just hoped tt all things will stop... good bros last time... good bros forever... sure can de lo... why do people get to know each other... we get to know each other because we will need help from that person... so dun complain so much... we get to know people for a reason... not just for fun... but someday, we will need help from that person.. seriously... troubles... hais.. wanna thank you for making my life so much easier to live on... trying to please you now... but i noe i cant be the perfect one... is the chinese tuition still on??? cus i think tt u will really need that lo... next month's the big exam for you... g
i'm still not over it yet... i cried the whole night ytd... even when chatting wid CK on msn... cried after that shoot... cried while SYF training is on... cried in bus beside mrs mok... cried and send sorry msges to SYF girls... cried when weijie msged to console mi... i cried myself to sleep ytd nite... cried when i woke up this morning... found out that i still could not get over it... why why why??? i hate the fact that the world is unfair... hate the fact the there is baisness in ppl... hate the fact that i am not even given a chance... hate the fact that i am useless... hate the fact that i am so damn unlucky ytd... hate the fact that i went to lane 9 to shoot... hate the fact that i am going to give up on NPCC... hate the fact that i did not treasure you innof... wish that there would be another chance for mi to re-shoot... wish that there was another round of selection... wish that the selection was drills-based and not name-based... wish that mrs mok would be fair and
cherlyn SUX cherlyn SUX cherlyn cherlyn cherlyn SUX SUX SUX so fucking sad now... studies... NP...you... not any NPCC enthu anymore... i sux at everything... AFTER ALL THAT I HAVE DONE... THIS IS WAD I GET.... NONONO... SINCE EVERYTHING HAS GONE DOWN THE DRAIN... MAYBE I SHOULD JUST GIVE UP.. WHAT YOU SOW IS WHAT YOU REAP is RUBBISH!!!
first time ever... X)) i finally defeated a guy in arm wrestling... teeheehees... sorry... if it is an insult to you... dun really wanna mean it... sorry!!! wad i did in class today??? hais... so sians la... to muhh JOAN JOAN darLin' some things are not meant to be... dun be so troubled and sad over it... if it is really meant to be like this... you can do nothing bout it too... think bout this ba... think thru real hard... you will understand one day why all this happened.. class deco on PORTUGAL... weets X)) ANDY IS SOCIALBLE... he can actually talk and mix around with other people de... hees.. he is a very very good guy... its just that he dun talk much... wakakas... andy talked to me... he ask mi help him do things... he asks mi for comments... weets... okays... tml classification shoot sia... scared scared... wear specs or contacts betta??? specs more comfy but right eye degree lil bit wrong... contacts degree correct but wear long will feel eye veh dry... not comfy... die
pump pump pump X)) suddenly love those pumpings... today in class nth much la... same old things... oh... poa test easy man... lols... social studies go see hutu and tutsi movie... kill here kill there... saddists sia 3e2... lols... den dn t stay in class... played arm wrestling... okays.... lost to steven both hands but nearly win hongwei... hais... nvm... npcc vs ncc they call it... after skl go meeting den 1.50 go dry shoot.. but i go there is help out... i revise with sec 2... den sec 3 kenna scolded lo... wad else... everytime oso lyk tt de leis... scold scold... poc poc... hais... nco nco... when gonna get??? can i be HT??? or maybe not... cus i dun wan stressed my self... oh ya... msut make my full u... cus got classification shoot on fri... den jus now at the jurong HQ saw our rival... hongkah sec... hais... nv even respect sia... i oso last year ATC female best camper rites??? last year oli sec 2 song leader rites??? so rude... no manners... den go back skl kenna pump... 20.
i love you... i hate me... i miss you... i need you... hello hello hello??? wads wrong wid mi i jus simply dun understand... lols... mus be so darn sick in the mind... hohoho~ okays... firstly... chinese... found out that 3e2 must split class... oh wad the fuck... split to other class nvm but split to 3e3... shen jian sia... suay until wanna die man... this is the 4th chinese teacher i had this year... god dammit... our ke wen oli teach until chpt 7... shen jian teach until 13... zuo ye all nv do... still must do until 13... den must do his file if not mus -5 marks... shit la... how to do the file lyk tt... dun even hav the worksheets lo... do lan la.. den go 3e3 lyk outcast lyk tt... but lucky sit beside window... can sms... hees... hais... nvm... i swear to my class that i will top the class in all my chinese test de... den eng... MR SU BEH not here again... so irresponsible sia him.. lols.. den ying xuan they all told us smth... MR NAZAR+MR SUBAIR=?? lols.. we all dunno den she say.
I'M HIGH AND HORNY TODAY!!! morning... alarm rang but i went back to sleep again... until liting msg mi... wakakas.. den woke up again... i wore my contact lens today!!! weets X)) not so comfortable at first cus long time nv wear le... but a while okays le... hmm... den went to skl lyk tt lo.. morning still kinda sians ba... so high in the morning... newspaper de period went over to felan there and get horny... den hist... nazar so darn pathetic la... toking to himself lyk tt... hais... i yuanny and nigel toking bout our own stuffs... laughing lyk mad... den nazar ask... wad did china invented??? wafiy said... CONDOMS... whole class was lyk... errs... and everybody started laughing including mr nazar... lols... den guess wad mr nazar said back... NO... if china invented condoms den it wuld not hav been the largest populated country in the world... lols... the class was clapping ad giggling away.. lols... den physics... sians la... but i went to jec's place and high again... den
there's jus one thing i feel lyk doing now... that is to subscribe the sports channel for the cable tv... wads the use man... having cable tv but no sports channel.... no use at all lo... hais... if i ask dad that wuld be a straight NO... and he wuld say no money and stuffs lyk tt.. so now... i decided that i go add the sports channel myself and den turn on that channel and watch it... and if dad sees it den i shall do my acting again... ehh... how come got this channel one ar??? ah pa.. u go subscribe ar??? he wuld den say no... den i shall say... wa... SCV so good... free channel.. sweet!!! nice plan lynn... giv urself a pat on the back... yea... and can watch world cup... woots... wakaka... oh yeah... oh yeah... I'M SMART!!! I'M SMART!!! hees... and i'm not gonna sleep in class again.. cus i fail 3 test... oli 3 tests but still not good innof... i'm gonna let studies... cca... and sports take over me now.. yea... i hav got RED ROSY CHEEKS... swit!!! well... its t
hais... finally.. i'm back.. after 4 days of having computerless time... so tired today... ytd the marshall for sports day... so darn tired... standing for so long... den went home den bout 7 plus 8 sleep le... woke up at 9 today den go life saving... so tiring the training.. warm up... 100m.. 50 free and 50 breastroke... den after that do towing... i tow fiona first den she tow mi... tow 100m... den do shallow water resuscitation... lols... i did the wrong entry... and i go do head first surface dive... dammit... den after tt do EAR and stuffs... den change over... fiona rescue mi... den after tt is do theory de... but we all go do stradle jump... den like fashion show lyk tt... do all together... mi fiona wilson chang yuan and ching yi... 5 ppl all together... den plunging... den head first surface dive and lastly slide in... den jasmine say theory den we do theory... not too bad la... but all sian sian de.. cus quite tiring... den lesson end at bout 12 lyk tt... den i changyuan