Note to self: No matter what happens, please be on your best behaviour for the 3days.
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Rewind.
Hello world, do you know white is the new black? Ohmygod (!!) The "Whiteberry" is in action.
Doodles.
I don't really know what to blog about today. I had something on my mind this afternoon and having short-term memory is not doing me good. Nothing ever stays in my brain for long, just like my lectures notes and all the knowledge. Whatever man seriously! I have goals but also have a fear of people mocking at me and my goals - Getting into the Arafura Games 2011. It's a sporting event held in Australia, Darwin and being able to attend it as a sportsman meaning getting into Team Singapore Lifesaving. Criteria is top 8 position for 4 individual events and it's already two down, so two more to go? I don't even think I have enough individual beach events. Dang, life's so sucky sometimes. Hopefully they would take relay events into account. I want, I want, I want it so badly. Gotta train hard, after my papers. Now I should mug hard. Blackberry Bold 9700 (White), I'm so getting you tomorrow, Teeeeheeeeheeeeeeee~ & I could eat Mac's Cinnamon Melts all day long, ...
Note.
It's already 25th and August would be coming to an end. I've pretty much wasted the whole month away, playing and eating way too much. Exams in 2 weeks time and competition in 3, sometimes I question my ability to prioritize my responsibilities. I've been playing and playing, enjoying my study-break and forgetting what is this break actually for-Study. I ask myself way too much questions and make myself think and reflect. I call this spending some quality "alone time" with myself. This is the time which I block everything out and it's just me and "the voice in my head" questioning each other about the every single thing that matters in my life. Nope I'm definitely not hallucinating and you've just got to admit, sometimes you find yourself talking to yourself in your head. (Like now, you're asking if you really did talk to yourself sometimes.) Do you ever felt neglected by someone important? Sometimes, I do. I think I'm thinking too mu...
Crushed.
Life isn't sad at all, the eally sad part about it is knowing that the one who screwing up your life is yourself. It has always been me. And the good old brains took so long to process, after all the losses and unnecessary unhappiness. I hope I'm not too late. It's not the same anymore, the feeling is growing and it's taking control. Same old, follow your heart cause whatever your brain thinks, your heart will know that it's a lie cause it's your heart that feels the pain, not your brain. Crushed and cast aside, it's all I deserve. Happiness appears to be within reach and opps, I'd totally missed out that thick glass wall in front of me. Fate is toying with me, playing with my feelings. I'm dying inside, really. When I thought everything is going well, something just had to come and bring me down. It's a routine I guess, I really shouldn't get too comfortable with my life. Sometimes I wish I can tear myself, take the bloody heart out and thro...
Colour.
Funny how words can make a great deal to make someone happy and do a one-eighty change to one's emotions. The thoughts that were in my mind a while back, I did a pretty bad job shutting them it. Well the truth is after a few feeble attempts, I gave up trying to shut them. Now those thoughts are running wild now or rather, they're on a wild rampage, creating chaos and stirring the emoshitz out of me. Seriously, it's so bothering me. Big time. Study session today was a big screw-up. I did notes but nothing went into this peabrain of mine, literally. And as usual I ended up dozing off on my lecture notes. They're pillows, like how the lecture tables are like beds. Anyway my arms and back ached like shitz (or even worse) after that nap and I couldn't put on my jacket, tq youseeme for helping me. That's how pathetic I am after a sudden return to training after 2 weeks of hiatus. So I gave today's session a miss and went to Bugis and had gotten fatter. I was being...
